A letter from June 27th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear John, Today, I felt that I conceded a year of our life. I failed to pass the year for us. It is currently the "Exam du Rattrapage" week, but here I am writing this letter to you, instead of preparing for the exams that could give me a second chance. I tried, I tried and I tried. I think it was just so hard for me, given that I haven't mastered the French Language. As well us, that I haven't well adjusted to the life of living here. Sorry, I tried but my body is failing me, my soul is not feeling it. I lost all of the things that made me valuable and those that prove my existence. I lost my motivations in life and I felt alone. The young version of us dreamt so high. A very intelligent, imaginative and creative kid he is, but a fool to dream at the great heights. It would be easier for us if he'd known the reality of life earlier. I hope you remember cause I miss those late afternoon rain where we were looking blind to the pale greyish blue sky. Where cold rain droplets flow through my cheeks and my skin, our skin. I hope you still enjoy those. You know my story but I will never know yours. I'm sorry if I did something wrong in the future before you, and I hope that you've forgiven me that I put you in that situation that you're living today. I hope it wasn't that horrible, I hope you have way better than what I have today. I wrote this letter to remind you of me and to say that I am sorry that I failed. I hope that you were able to read this or I just hope that you're still alive because I'm afraid that in between us I made a terrible mistake that forsaken your existences. If ever you read this, I know that you're far way stronger than I am. I've been through a lot but today you've been through a lot more than I am. Be strong, be stronger and be strongest John that I never dream of. Sincerely yours, John 2018

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Dear John 2018,

I already received 3 letters that you have we have sent in the past. Reading these letters reminds me of the memories, emotions, and pains incrusted with...

In wrdo ti aceh. Si aenk,t ot rthare em hhguoutotr of m,erosmie teh utb rdehgtea nad i ti aelbueabnr to i irdmne ot i have eth olerspbm vi,vreuds avhe oklo imotnatrp nreuoyj dowmsi ethse the orsda akcb ddinee. Lobew eavh to or hwo orf em agter ywa raf cerhade a high ltel i. .
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Yrlep nnkwigo ihts hatt s'it ouy for ot ot qetiu smeisipbol to arnrtbae is it dare ou,y kacb. Imaorpttn ithw ot taht eprdnso avhten' encdocde nhikt flie i'st nda i uyo illts i utb kcba owhs. I'm isltl ereh ntgfighi nilvig and. .
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Gto htta ppyah degeesr uor ot eunoannc rbhs'lcoae lniylfa i'm we. Rae eptiargne ihwt tme ltlsi isrednf ferat pelepo ew dlefnrowu oatyd 1,l htta. Ite,m aertmit-p ewrdko gdunri as olsa a rhceeat laneguag isth we. Shete lla dna shti fo ,ettohgre aflnliy ot ruingd omer oeppel ,dya ew itme oru we ometnm het iaclso we htsi thta videitn ,l2 on tem cresuo pdsne aehcgnd hatt gto het ief,l si tv,oinsaac giazmna ietasp,r. Enw itsh eerixecepn epoedn nuf adn su uisrpotepinto opel,pe ahve wen ot lapecyisel eetm rome rof ngiths,. Gto itsnaosicoa het ew as girudn svcaicreee-try elcdtee the ntpemer'atds fo ,3l utsndte. Ew voem shti lsto eehr clnfneidsoe-cef bkca of kdni het we ahtt rgtuobh henw. Htta ooggnin as dna tardste na lew,l itme dimeepci si inrdgu ahs sltli. Us uesycscusllf tpos hittwuo it oru amed and eamd tub for ot su e,siodsnci to noigg aialtvdde tsih rou ,us suhpde dociaemptcl imoeesmst htigsn du rougace us het aaartgret"p taht ikthn daem ro tihrenk het raey "mxea. .
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Ew nac ash teh ew noe ebst den say urryelnct smmeur, noe tsih ta i eebn but of of era had het. Eiarstp ohret as nda a ubnhc icnrsyoedtu of otw we tshi mrum,se gto well ot rsieatp vtediin. ,enthso hmeo fritdenef rlcetyne eb a ew acme soinoltac rmfo orfm gaynprit yad ujts ot iuonnoustc 7. Tsih btu sha rtgnheyive eon tno'w i de,n ttha shiw. .
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Ew a 2 tlsli tssdnute obefer cxagneeh dan we as wesek an nesd erfoeb lugebim felt ftle ahev ryea eumrsm for orf. Aeo,nl onnag oealn wne elalry oimnvg a s'ti onuwknn i'm eoatrhn eb inot t,asrt. A to tbu ,ehy feil peusisrr way sha us. Rea, sloa earln uoy tihs iernvos to nad ew rof steb us of way owh the is a eb gtrae. We iytslhs we nnoag ew fit agnno nad rea whne f,a emht eurntr be hskco ca,kb. .
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Fi tub m'i viganh enoh,ts be ot ti ertncyle ot a dsotbu si go yawa giana daie argte. Atht daem mdea em atth dna ldvoe, yphap ppee,ol ntmegei faetr lefe em sehet. Hscte em atth meth hvyea ilwl i tllieng my ngeelfi thsi in msis reeh'st. Ot ealv,e utb i doceerp norsacctt sumt nad i egn,isd otahedl rae. Psenifhrdi we hatt do lt,ssa cacttsno that eth lla acn ew is amnire dna ehop. Kaem a hnwe in rfodnewlu we giana go ihopng eth bkac yera, eoesrimm acn sitll rtp,aesi i iutnocen. .
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Yuo 'enthva so dlfeia daer njoh,. Esgtrrno yuo ew veha ady !dsdeucce wngor by ady. .
Uylol' ecornuq feil sefor,uly in dan 'im rutts ersu. .
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U,rsoy pyhplia.
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1220 honj.

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