A letter from December 26th, 2017

Dear FutureMe, I don't know if you'll be able to read this. If yes, thank God you're alive. 5 years ago, you are in a deep pain. Actually, you are in a deep pain for 7 years and I hope you already found happiness. I know you won't be able to remember this and I know myself this much that you'll think of this as one of my 'kajejehan' pero at some point you'll appreciate this. I told you, I know you. I hope...so. I won't mention the names for I know you don't want to remember. Don't be mad if I don't mention their names, if you're remembering their names now, please..stop remembering. You don't want to feel again. I'm sorry for making you remember about me...but at some point, I don't want you to forget me. If you turn bad, please change for the good. Don't let the demons swallow you. Let them go. They are no good. They will just bring much pain to you. Forget being bad, remember that you are a nice person, you don't want to hurt people. You never wanted to be bad. And if you're in a deep depression, never forget this, never think of a situation that will make things worst. Be happy in your imagination, be crazy for good! Just don't think of your problems, just let them be. Forget it. You are able to survived these past few years because you never think of your problems. It's okay to feel but never imagine. Okay? I love you, please don't **** yourself. If you want to die, please die by saving the lives of other people.