to myself; 10 years ago today.

Dear FutureMe, so many questions. will this work? do you still have this email? will you still care? or have I become what I've always hated? ever stopped and realised something that you knew would change your life forever. any moments that have turned your life around? my life is the pivotal of boring the same old melancholy repetitive life i'm a biproduct of this hitech society another question: have you accomplished anything with your life yet? did you take that GAP year that I always wanted to take after the first year of uni... are the people you love still around? the people that .count. that is. i hate people that dont think. blissful ignorance is a disease. i hope you haven't changed at least that much for me. me and my parents dont get along have you told them you love them lately? are they still alive? have you and that guy who always tried to act smarter than he was burnt a tree yet? you always wanted to burn a tree... and sit back n take it all in. hmm a wise old teacher said to my//your//our class today: "it's not the places you go that will affect you//it's not what's on the outside//but what's on the inside//it don't have to fly to another country like India to have amazing experiences//just take it all in//just THINK." I'm guessing you'd have a job by now unless your homeless or a druggo .or dead. i'm unemployed at the moment and completely undedicated to anything and everything that I start im addicted to myspace i hope you've deleted that account by now do you own a TV in your house? I always thought that I wouldn't. my advice for the future me: Travel more. See places. See people. Learn. Think. and Love. i have a 10:30pm internet curfew permanently and an oreo addiction... i think body mods are beautiful do you still think that? I hope it wasn't just a phase Did you ever get your lip pierced at the end of year 10? Your parents were VERY against it do you still remember that JESUS spelt backwards sounds like SAUSAGE? i am an expert procrastinator, i never do hw i could be so smart but i dont try how did your enter score go? make a journo course? or change your mind? right now I don't know if I'd want to be a journo but i want to//need to travel. Sin City is my favourite movie. i think i can quote it all. today is the day we got the 2nd phone line with the cool 006... number Every day; i get up early and read the news headlines I hope you read the whole stories now. do you still think the world is fucked? At the moment I am sitting back wondering when the time will come to DEMAND change. i will probably realise that time when it is to late. already censorship and propaganda is at an all time high. i hope i remember the good times and the good people the people who made your life great. and the people who made your life shit, but you love them for it. Remember; don't always strive to be happy if you go somewhere; don't make plans take life as it comes that way you will get the most out of it if you strive to always be happy; you will eventually never find happiness, sometimes you will break down and cry and fuck will you have needed that cry it will be shit and great at the same time some days you will be so mad youll want to break something .or someone. and you will. but see the world, i know nothing, i want to know more, but remember also; you can know alot, yet still know nothing. Shit I have been writing for a long time I'm not going to proof read this tho. I hope I forget all about it. It's 7:40 Oct 12, 2005 You are sweet 16 everyone has boyfriends//girlfriends//lovers except you for some reason you could never love anyone you thought you .liked. people but once they returned it you became afraid. and craved space and air .you havent had a boyfriend in almost 3 years. I'll wrap things up here if you got this; think of your childhood remember that you wanted to make something of your life you wanted to help people you wanted to understand yourself i dont know who the fuck i am at the moment you wanted to understand the world .and live. i hope you have known true love i hope you have known true friendship in high school i think the only purpose of friends is because we are all afraid of being alone i hope your not afraid of that anymore. peace! P.S; don't settle down yet!! keep moving// keep travelling. dont stay still. cos once you stop// the repetition will start. and once the wheels begin to turn// there's no stopping them. !take care!