Dear Future Self

This is you from December 10th, 2015, A lot has happened in the last year. Drastic changes to your life and hopefully more will come. Though I can't be sure if they will be good or bad changes, and whether or not they will have torn you apart, but you will know. You will have learned more than I know and have grown to be hopefully a better person. I look forward to meeting you, though I also know, sometimes I am a terrible person and I know that that aspect of me may be what will flourish, I hope not. I hope that everything that has happened will be a greater impact on making you a better person, but since you may forget by time this letter reaches you, I will remind you of this year. You graduated high school, having done a wonderful job and worked your ass off over the Summer. You got a job that took up 25-32 hours of your life a week, and woke up very early to make yourself progress. You chose to sustain from friends because those you chose to be friends with, weren't who you needed in your life, but association never quite leaves a good enough distance. Your once best friend and you are not close, but your sister and her have been good friends. I hope that doesn't change for her. Over the course of the last year, I have made many mistakes that I don't regret, I never really do, but I have this gnawing inside me that says you will. It isn't leaving me either, I can just feel the regret I rarely feeling arising already. As you tell by the date on this, it is close to Christmas, and you have planned what you have and are getting everyone for Christmas. Give back to those who have given you so much, and you have an upcoming winter break job on-campus, New construction. You have this job alongside your wonderful roommate, best friend, and a sister to you! She is the best thing to happen to you this year. She has been your closest ally and has been there for you since school began in August, but your relationship with her has only grown through all the good and bad, from the rough down to here. I love her dearly, and I hope you continue to, though sometimes her personality can be pessimistic, just remember, if it wasn't for her, you might not have stayed. As for guys and relationships, nothing really ever grew. A couple guys here and there, only one made it to the "let's date" moment and then it only lasted three days, tops! You don't regret it though, he decided he liked a girl you've gone to school with since 4th grade more. It's okay though. I am happy that what happened had happened, because the relationship would have gone no where. he wasn't the one, or a meant to be, and I am incredibly happy for them. As for friends, you have made and lost many, some from foolish mistakes, and others because of coincidence. Some of them may be very temporary, but others-they might be lifelong. I sincerely hope this finds you in good health in all aspects, and that I am not wrong when I say, you are happy!