fucking hell man

ok this is sent from the time when i was writing anne a vv lovely letter ok ya i just wanted to tell u IT IS ONLY GOING TO GO DOWNHILL FROM HERE YA i promise /promise/ pinkie promise but as i was writing the letter to anne i realized that i am painfully nice to everybody but myself and that sucks ya!!! i'm going to be vv nice to myself from today on and i hope you as the future me has learnt to appreciate that u better fuckin appreciate it ya ok rn i think u r doing area pt??? and geog portfolio (fuck u for not chionging it earlier u asshole) & HV U MEMO'D CHINESE PT???????? also u'd better be studying for bio spa???? HI (that's only if the appeal phor physics didnt get through ha ha i'm so funny ok btw there r ants on my fucking table fuck u ants _|_ _||||||||_) my hair smells like a shopping center rn and the night air smells like obs i miss obs fuck i just wanted to say GOOD JOB on completing/being on your way to completion for area and geog aas hehe & CHINESE PT CAN ONE LA please believe in + rmb your p5 self you were SO bubbly and SO, SO unafraid of the entire world do u rmb when u thought u could wow the entire audience with your stupid farting speech ya lmao u DID and u got a bronze honor roll!!! even anna said laoshi said that ur script was q good so u WON'T screw up EVER. i believe you. i believe IN you. & i know you're prob vvv stressed out rn bc 1) u r prob ovulating rn lmao fuck periods 2) SO. MUCH. TO DO. :( but don't be sad & whatever u do unless u r CALLING someone don't rant!!!! u will feel better but only by a bit & in the end u will feel SO much worse bc u've wasted so much time to feel only that little bit better so cALL SOMEONE!!!!! & rn i as in your past me am talking to so many people rn i.e. jeremy & xin & tiffquek & sam tan ha r u jealous yet they r ALL there for u & they will ALL be there for u when u need them ok u better get ur shit together & rehearse for chinese pt ok!!!! and bio SPA can one la u fuckin passed bio TA a mere SPA isn't goin 2 knock u down again right cry if u must but rmb to mug while crying lmao i am SO hard on myself remember to eat xx p.s. i may hate myself and i may want to die but i don't hate YOU and i don't ever want YOU to die. i love you. always. ALWAYS. just fucking believe me, ok?