To you, from you

Peaceful right?

Trying to get back the girl right now, waiting around in a lonely, white-walled apartment for another 50 days to pass, when I'll visit Reno in May. I'm going to go have pizza and watch Argo in the conference room in an hour with coworkers. How's life? I wish I could get a response from you, to know that it works out, to know how things happen. Are kids in the future? If I'm back with C she'll want children within the next six years, which currently freaks me out. So if that happened, our first kid would be almost two or three by now, right? I wonder if I'll use my list of names for naming a kid. That's jumping ahead a little, though. Did getting back with C even work out? Haha, was memorizing that Pablo Neruda poem worth it or a waste of time? Are you in Reno now? Is she in Portland? Right now I'm worrying about money a little, and how airfare is ridiculous and I'll pay for a lot to go visit every month or two. Maybe you're a rich jetsetter by now and those aren't concerns anymore? Hey, this is sent from eight years ago. Pretty perfect number, right? :D So I wonder, how have you progressed? I'm trying to learn guitar through Rocksmith, I'm kind of succeeding. I mean, you'll know this because you read your journal... How about your internet prospects? Music production? Language learning? "The language?" How about comic creation? Or the creature world thing? I still need glyphs for ghosts, dragons or chaos, and the cosmos... Are you still at your insurance job? Have you gone back to school? Right now I feel pretty stuck and ambivalent, and scared for the future. I'm getting paid alright and don't want to leave, I know that if I stick it out I'll just get paid more but over time but obviously it's not an enjoyable or fulfilling position and there's much more to life than this godawful cubicle. Does my writing seem different than your current style? Anyway, I guess I'll go do something else. I'll be sending this message a few times across the decades, so if you get this, remember to type up a new one so there'll be a message that gets added to every 10 years! Hmm, maybe I'll make it 8, that seems more suited to me. Alright, see you in 2029.

Epilogue

2 days later

My dude, you should stay in Portland. That whole Reno thing is a waste of time. You're afraid of moving on, so your paradox solution is taking a risk to...

Ywa yhte hsitng epke eerw eth. Btu lsou pu oyu 'eroyu wiht nerkbo ohw ihwt seliya eaclp na si no'td ,giedatta ultyr kame to a gntiyr eht egl owrdl csayr. Hawt its' racgni hre tiwh ot post tiem ppsaenh. .
.
A rte'hse mndpicea ggion file? w,lel ddiewlrwo on. Tshi dsiaees oeplpe yighhl oerth plpoee tgaibhrne rsh'tee no mfor aserpd eignb ,iontuifces leydda. ,emag that mbrermee ?demcpian halsf tath ouy do ikle i'ts. Sneemoo ostypmms euspr llreedy dkin but ic,ks 'rehyte not spaedr yldeda aodrnm, aeielrz rrtbleei or 'its 'sti rfmo who even teh dan ear o'esdtn rfo sti' fo teh. Het igwtina ot been be tlsa eth fmor orf ofr ei'v aienccv lilieebg rye,a eomh oignkwr. Awer sdiueot mssak eelopp tmso. . . Btu ro otbau ewehthr lhusod i this d'uyo 'ehtesr oseth,n nto, eb nsadrtedun lweho ot sreynortvoc nkhit you od'tn. Etnetnir ega uoirdsesc teh nad luibcp ahs dnhgcea. A eralpall ogod t'swha. . . Strerhea ety, eha'vnt ?ihrtg alft you eth neevr tauob hraed ndim. Od ypa tdo'n 'ist yuo sltop?ici nad annoteitt oyu wlfua wkno i ellyar to who.
.
Vrene nebe ,llwe kd?si dteenesirt vyueo'. Yte hktin ,am dtn'o i i. Ahye 'mi adtornpl, ni. 'ntod arec ont ni job btu tbuao oot osmyne' kdes i'm oerth dba i mose. At iintsoop dna ym ogod era ym im' lghiatr rorscweok. Ni wya le,ast eht het tberet 'yloul ncrsaeiun aehv htan ta a 'tsi ojb noer ntha nad tif ettreb bj,o blbryopa. .
.
Krscomhit. . . Ym si ,lewl uyo duse ngsitit mroo iguatr tslli ni tuo the. I vomed trohe art amgse gstinh dna dieov onot. Too iohntng mrjao. Eestirnts asisylpar ursioav i'm dnoiecsi wiht itsll nad ghue a krod. A,rey maed xcepneeeri tals htta ogsn a ogdo aws i. Agsnsiido ot stor no sdettle roem isngivti eb, hteonyl?s tbu ymbea thna edus meso sesl i m'i ,os fo dan emor zdapaeyrl fro a tcdroo. Mdes udclo way teh oldcu itohmesng tsuj be ma eb i othwr f,or ingetgt. Ofr riusv vtinigsi fo het ratst ingaa ngith ikdn igiwant dalyed tohlsaisp ndow i stleet feebro ot 'im. Eseth'r a onilsuot for this wyyana, bymea asmiael.
.
Lhc,oos on no. Tosm tpopsde eth for hte arnicg arpt tobua i osrtpcpe nthki i. Bmeoce ont a lhsudo fprree adteudce i mreo rf?o oipnsrofse waht eesr'ht i'd. Dna e,elopp i srmoeo yuo bbhyo re'ew.
.
Ryou essem tngiirw lyt?se nife it. Gtiiwnr i aer you selty ubt otn rlapboyb ma, buato ?ounfs-secsclio. Oru aeirvcte ?knhit fr,ote taht eienrttn eth nda uoy lyndgulai gigninb stffu is 'tndo. At lgnorsicl utb to oyu with llki nkwo nercrtu kolo uyo itme yeasr ebwstsie rouy fo oj?b mroe thta amny ohw eddtri frdawor. .
.
Set reeelsa dsbraesream ot im' albgoyll uyo fo tleret tsih nkdi. Eht gto elppoe mlaei a eertcda ahtt i ulps nsdoec telter ot eht ei,alm gsniya. Mnberu era tcseasnni iths yuo msot c?atiecdn of fatre used evw'e wsa stime nest a iths an etbswei fo btu spopsue tseoh i ihts. Bayem a lnle?oy e'uyor emisds kxbicto uoy byaem. Axcet etrtel yoru ricetesdtr eshr'e seopci ascecs ehotr phniog of teh ahve veboa i-sor-xtufo.

This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please

Write new comment

Load more comments