Don't Forget

Dear FutureMe, I'm sure a lot has happened in the last few years. Life is always dramatically altering for me from year to year. Remember when there was a norm in life? Back when you were still in elementary school? I remember those days...All I wanted to do was get away, move to Florida like Mom promised. I remember dreaming that we would live in a cool apartment by the beach and my floor would be one of those cool aquarium like things. I would sleep in a hammock all the time and spend my summers hanging out on the boardwalk. Back then I wanted to meet a really hot guy at the pizza shop because that seemed like a really cool meeting. He would have blond hair, blue eyes and a nice beach tan. Those were the good old days.... Then sixth grade hit and you met Nolan O'Connor, the very embodiment of your dream guy. Do remember the way you felt about that boy? The way your heart beat so fast at the very mention of his name. It was funny how we never actually talked to him, but I dreamed. I dreamed that Nolan was this amazing courageous guy. He would always be there for me just in the knick of time. He was perfect, well I guess that's because we never really got to know him. Nolan O'Connor was just an infatuation, a crush. I don't think I exactly got crushed in the process of crushing. Ever since then I have never met a guy that made me feel the same way. I thought maybe I found that guy once, when we first met Evan. There was always something off about us being a couple. I mean not to be shallow or anything, but Evan isn't exactly our type. As I always say. He's a great guy...Just not our great guy. Have you met our great guy yet? I wonder..... Remember back in 9nth grade when you and Tatter talked about wanting to be Nomads for a year? I think that you should still do that. Remember, you would have a travel journal, one item that you collected from each location, and someone to write home to. Just so that you could touch base with the real world every now and then. So we'll be turning 16 in May. I hope that this year is even better than last. Hopefully we'll have enough money to buy a car. Either that or the business will get up and running so that we can inherit the old clunker. Nothings the same anymore, when it comes to family at least. Now I spend every holiday with Dad because we barely get to see him on the weekend. Madison....well I have the means to get to her, it's just that her mom isn't complying. I hope that I'm able to get in touch with her before I graduate. Somehow I feel like I'm pulling away from them, and I probably am. I mean I want to move to the other side of the country. I have good reason for that. I guess I'm writing this letter because I'm bored. I'm also a little reminiscent of the good old days when my heart was set on fire. Maybe one day I'll get back to that stage...maybe. Well here's to a bright future. A wonderful exciting, successful life, and love. Love you always, Your Past Self