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Dear FutureMe, It's been two weeks since you found out your very close friend took his life. I know you've been blaming yourself, especially after the falling out and all the silence. You didn't know his silence was so dangerous, and he wouldn't let you in. And the silence was hurting you. It's not your fault. I know it takes a long time to truly believe that even when you rationally know it's true. It's still early days in grieving. If you're still blaming yourself today, that's okay and normal and part of healing. Please remember self-blame is your brain's way of trying to get some control over a situation that was uncontrollable. If you were to blame, you could have stopped it. But no one can always pull someone back from suicide, 24/7. You've healed from awful things before when they led to self-blame. You'll do it again. Please do something nice for yourself today. You've got this. Me