Hi AlishaDid you do it? If the thesis is over that’s already something to smile about regardless of the outcome. I don’t know how it went but I’ll try for you. Do you remember I wrote one of these letters when I was sobbing over my bachelors thesis? I told you I’m doing this for you so you can do this masters program. So that you could feel accomplished and advance your cv. I wanted to set you up for success in a good job. That’s why I’m suffering through this. Right now I’m at a low point. I’ve stopped doing things that are good for me like the gym, running, meeting friends. I’ve stayed inside all day. I’ve cried every day this month. I hate the process of this. I hate feeling so behind in life and I hate feeling so useless. I worry that I’ll never make it out. I want a job to feel like I’m not just a wasted human and a consumer. The reason I’m suffering through this is to give you the best chance at having a job that lets you feel fulfilled. I’m grateful for younger me for suffering through. I don’t know where I’d be if she didn’t. So I will for you. I hope this is over for you.
Epilogue
5 months later
Hi sweetheart. I didn't get the passing mark you hoped for. It was over for a long time. I stopped with academics because of burnout. I know you tried really...
Hdar. 'mi evig up tihngs taht you ouy rewe dogo rysro fro dah ot. .
Acdieacm teh ersevdde ruyo kitnh i drwol itrpsi tndo'. .
I nyrigt dahr khnti me and i imhtg hatt eth phoe lorecs ot have lsos ehva ahd ttha lsayaw fo sjut that i tdinceotbru btu htghuot ayrell oulwd nrgbi rbun tou.
Wrhto uoy atht recnadune nuhsgpi tub 'tsi i ihwt uyo og t'si na lla dan ont nweh acn vhea seydat psitrn care a eosestmmi tath nkow. Lylera 'nsti sihest sirntp a tngriwi. Ma 4 rowte iultn htat etg in wnok lkie ecrhlabo gmaci wfe dan of a siseth ti fo your i ot ujst ysgtina edorwk ithnsg uoy rid up tlos. So eped taht you do nac yuo klei cfu!lescsus oery'u rewe tub pelyoclmet dna it rtse nfgleei ouy utabo fwual fi tssurb deen kwro. Egnhuo bueaecs the ot 'astnw yuolrsfe teh oucoemt drviing geunho geniltl annhicgg lyufrseo erwe dan dourng qikuc rewnt'e doign uoy oyu. 'wnsat hte ubaesce were eodrwri depe ohenug hemsiontg atubo oyu ster alwysa. Eednde flet genohsitm slwaay ilek ouy to ouy do. Neve yuo ot if dya yvere aegre esshti ohest romf uoy soeilcasi ewer losga sad nad rten'ew be newekeds rewe tme let nad ewhn reef eerixecs ouy rnwgtii.
Dan ko jtus vile memeostsi htaebr 'sit ot. It uoy llayre kwne tbu ievl sthi id'ntd uyo. To hda i.
Btuods thye i you me tisll saref as osmunec sa eht veah aesm 'dnot nad utb hcmu. Htat i i epho acn i on atwh me sveig otnetnc oucfs dan cnsomue od.
To dan hatt bkca oemr ve'i ryt go eediddc oecn shstei twih. Dan upt ocem beeusca nac uyo dgoo mrof ti humc it itno gniths noyl os. Ist' oodg. Allyer t'is doog. Ihts meti erew i if eb keil i c'tan yuo rthu alif. Whtor ton fesl ensse fo ym im' hitanctag ti to. Oynl so igntyr tno i htta nceo eb yb dse'nto geinv shitgn erts liwl to emor hvae kwro emlysf rylael ****** now out 'theesr i tge ti rale fi ogdo.
Coem a job wlil. Oyu bael os gtisnh era ymna to od. And rea oyu delbapata celevr so. Ot difn you od owkr oeucsr fo lwli. Teh sa trust endede adn rocessp erst. Yuo vole i.
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