A letter from Nov 18, 2024

Hey guyss This is a version of the ridiculous events I experienced last year, written with the names changed (so, everything written here is true and in my personal life). But I guess I never got around to writing the rest—probably got lazy. Also, I found this text during my history class. HISTORY, of all places. Anyway, enjoy reading it! Chapter 1: June 2024 I was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. Summer had arrived, and it was 33 degrees. While I felt like dying from the heat, I was also struggling with the intensity of my thoughts. There was only one week left before the end of the school year, and I had a violin concert this Sunday. Instead of practicing for it, I was just lying around, occupying my mind with these ridiculous topics. It had only been a day since I broke up with Ezzy, though not much had changed in my life. Whether he was there or not, it had always felt the same even when we were together. Our relationship hadn’t been the same ever since his closest friend, Vallie, broke up with her boyfriend. Perhaps it wasn’t even the same before that—I might have just failed to notice. If you ask why it was like that, here’s the answer: Ezzy openly pursued Vallie. Even Vallie’s ex-boyfriend, Dorian, and Ezzy’s best friend, Jack, noticed it. Initially, this situation irritated me, but later on, I stopped being so angry. In fact, I could say I had expected it. After my crush on Eli ended and I experienced my first heartbreak, I started getting bored of guys really quickly, and I didn’t get upset about my love life. While this annoyed the people around me, it actually worked in my favor. Anyway, let me briefly explain how I ended up in this situation, or else you won’t understand anything later on. Oh, and fair warning: there are quite a few names, so try not to get confused. Let’s go back to the beginning of last year. October 2022 “Irene, hurry up! You’re going to miss the bus!” Woken up by my mom’s call, I jumped out of bed and rushed to the bathroom. I washed my face and got ready quickly. I’ll skip the details of my morning routine because they’re not that important. Anyway, I made it onto the bus just in time. First, it picked up my cousin, and then it headed to school. When we arrived, I ran up the stairs to my classroom. This year was my preparatory year, and the school year had already been underway for over a month. It was my first year of high school, and I was going through every teenager’s classic cannon event: the first friendship group drama—getting excluded. I mean, seriously, if I was being excluded in a group of seven people, that’s just pathetic. I had had enough. I remembered the promise I had made to myself back in middle school: “No matter what, don’t get excluded, and don’t end up alone in high school.” So, I made a sudden decision to stop hanging out with that silly group during breaks. Unsurprisingly, I made this decision during the most boring subject of all—math. Instead, I decided to spend time with the girl sitting next to me, Camillie, or “Cami” for short. She was about my height, with slightly curly hair, hazel eyes, and a slightly muscular build. She wasn’t exactly popular—more like someone who kept to herself. But I figured being with her was a much better option than being excluded and alone. Since we were already seatmates, it wasn’t difficult to start talking to her. Cami had oddly gone over to sit with Valerie—Vallie for short—and Adriana (Adri for short) that day. Vallie had blonde hair, a small, straight nose, and striking blue eyes, making her quite pretty. Adriana, on the other hand, had brown skin, brown eyes, and brown hair. I already knew Vallie from brief chats in the cafeteria during the first weeks of school, but I hadn’t really talked to Adriana much. She was a quiet girl, and I didn’t particularly like quiet people. Still, I didn’t mind. I spent the entire day with those three girls, and they were surprisingly warm toward me. During lunch, I made the silly decision to go back to my old group, which confused the girls. Thankfully, I realized how ridiculous I was being and stuck with them from the next day onward. A few weeks passed, and these three girls, who weren’t even a group at the time, became one—with me as the fourth member they’d been waiting for. Within a month or two, we became inseparable. I won’t lie; I really grew to like these girls. April 2023 “Ugh, it’s so hot. I’m going to lose it!” Vallie groaned. “Alright, babe, chill. We’re all sweating here,” I replied, making it clear how much the heat was getting to me. By now, we were halfway through our preparatory year, and I was still close with these three girls. In fact, they were the people I trusted the most. About a month had passed since I’d broken up with Hunter, the guy I had started dating early in the school year without much thought, just for fun. I had never really liked him, but looking back, he had genuinely known and cared about me. (Let me pause here to say: I don’t believe in karma, but at this point in my life, neither Ellis nor Ezra was around. Could this be karma for what I did to Hunter? Ha! HEY, YOU—YES, YOU—what I’m saying is…) Hunter, who was rude to everyone else, was like a kitten around me. Our relationship ended after eight months because I got bored of him. Why did I stay with someone I didn’t love for eight months? How did I tolerate it? Honestly, I don’t know either. And to be fair, he wasn’t all bad—he was funny and entertaining, though I could have done without his nightly “send nudes” pleas. Now, back to the story. During the April break, on a particularly “high-energy” day, as my mom would put it, I said before bed, “I hope I dream of someone who likes me in the future,” and drifted off. And guess what? For an entire week, I had dreams about Ellis, a guy from the next class who was also in my German class but who had never caught my attention before. Of course, I hadn’t expected that. As soon as school reopened, I started noticing him. I’d find myself watching him, and **** it, he was the one who started it. This weird guy, who hadn’t even looked me in the eyes before the break, suddenly couldn’t stop staring at me with those dark brown eyes. What had happened during the break to make him start looking at me? I was so confused because I still had a boyfriend—yes, I HAD A BOYFRIEND! So, I tried to keep my feelings for Ellis in check. Now, however, since Hunter and I were no longer together, I was shamelessly staring at Ellis every chance I got. He started talking to me during German lessons and hanging out with us during lunch breaks. I was planning to send him a follow request on Instagram, but before I could, I opened my phone to find he had already sent me one. I was stunned. I couldn’t tell the girls about this because I thought they’d find it too random and silly. Besides, I was embarrassed. Every time I talked to Ellis, my cheeks turned red, and I couldn’t stop it—it was completely out of my control and incredibly obvious. May 2023 No, I couldn’t like this guy. No, no, no—I was an idiot. I couldn’t let it show. Ugh, fine, I liked him.