A letter from Oct 14, 2024

Dear Future Mege, Happy birthday gurlll slaaayyyy wuhuuuu you are 25 nowwww. This must be very exciting, I hope you are doin ok and i hope you are continue your ritual for being in another city for your birthday every year. I really wonder where are you now but if you have weird and fun people with you, you are in right place now. This is just a thank you for being that beautiful and working so hard. Right now I am still trying to figure out somethings especially about my career but you are doing fine and keep continue for me. Because I turned 24 one month ago and I feel so old now. You probably think, ah stupid gurl you think you are old?! im çeyrek asır years old ya. Hahaha not funny but this must be weird. Don't worry you are still so young and you still have 5 years to turn 30 :). Oh I think I will never be able to forget this age thing. Ok, I wanna mention about me rn. I recently love techno and Joost klein a lot (that's still felt like guilty pleasure), I come back to my home Malatya second time now and this winter must be very busy for me. Bc I have a lot of things to do but im sure you figured out by now. I realized that im just talking about how my mind is very busy and I want to do a lot of things but real issue is not that, it's who I am and who I wanna become. This years Mege was really fun but stupid and angry and anxious. I spend really good time with a lot of wrong decisions but that's ok bc everyone (as crazy as me) should experience this kinda stuff to understand who are they really. I do not regret but I know how I wanna continue. I wanna respect myself. Because I want people to respect me but I see now that first I should respect myself and I know how to do. Knowing is not enough that's why this gurl must be in action first of all for herself. I know I started thanking you but if you are still struggling with same issues I want you to know just believe in yourself mege. You've become really interesting person by now and you will always be as you are. Just by existing. I don't know... Just love yourself at first then your mom and you will be ok. I love you from past. ps: Oh just a reminder if you still wanted ofc, Go to watching Eurovision this year. I think 2025 mege can afford that. ( If you are not don't be sorry, I wanted you to remember you have small dreams just for fun. Make t) Lots of love mege.