A letter from Oct 08, 2024

Dear future me, this shall pass. take a deep breath. keep taking them. drink a glass of water right now. everything is going to work out, okay? its just the iit exam, **** it, okay? literally **** everything. i dont want to do this anymore. I've tried everything, trust me. Nothing seems to work out. **** everyone's expectations, **** yours too. You know what your problem is? you want to be perfect at everything you try. you cant accept anything when you arent a 'natural' at it. so, u will just do it 1-2 times and then thats it, stop. when the world tells u, you arent good enough, you stop it. u accept the fact. but here's a good thing about u, you're good at things (the exams you give without studying or your poems or dance or skating or literally anything) now just imagine a little hard work, woah- boom you're now A LOT BETTER AT IT. so, stop wasting your potential and now now, ik its easier said than done. i know, okay? but you're going to get through this. i know you're burnt out. but no one literally no one knows or cares, ok? so, get a grip, fake it till u make it. its 3:25am btw and you've test at 7am lol. YOU'VE GOT THIS. I BELIEVE IN YOU, AND I'M GOING TO STUDY FOR YOU. I'M GOING TO MAKE YOU PROUD. TRUST ME. I'VE GOT THIS. NOW, WATCH ME. HERE I COME.