A letter from Oct 09, 2024

Dear sharkey, Did you ever attempt, did you ever relapse, will you **** yourself, how close are you to ******* yourself, i want to end it. I want to see my skin rip open, i want to see that white/orange reveal to me. I currently have 71 day streak of not relapsing. Do you have money, what bands do you like now, will you ever kiss/get kissed by a girl?. do you have more "trauma" or bad experiences? reason im asking that last part is because i need bad stuff to happen to me to feel valid why i want to **** myself. i like soad, deftones and stuff