A letter from Jul 15, 2024

Dear FutureMe, I LOVE FANFICTION Fanfiction fuels my heart, soul, and the source of happiness. HAHAHAHHA I've been reading all the papa gojo fics and eating them UP. I need him so bad bro. I know I'll regret typing this in years, and it'll haunt me to no end, but whatever. 😝😝 It's my first orientation day at Uni tomorrow. Sucks cause it means I can't read fanfiction all day. OK silly times over. Now is time for the actual stuff I'd wanna read three years from now. I feel like my choice to go to Uni was made on my own ambition to do better with myself, and dig into my natural curiosity with how the world works. I feel so curious about everything, and I want to learn everything; I just don't know how. Today I went to SciTech with my cousins, and I was really excited because I haven't been since primary school. Learning about the stars again makes me want to study astrology... which is too bad, because I'm gonna be doing archaeology. I wish I did physics in high school because astrology is really interesting. I can always switch, but I don't meet the prerequisites yet. I think archaeology is really interesting. I don't know what jobs I can get out of it, so I feel discouraged over the fact that I don't know what I'll do after getting a degree. At the moment tbh I really just wanna read fanfiction. I've been reading father gojo and son megumi fics and they're really sweet. I also have this urge to just organise my entire laptop and everything so I'm all set for uni. I really like feeling organised. My goal, for when Uni comes, is that I want my hobbies to mainly be reading and dancing. I really like dancing, and also through teaching XYZ some choreography I've discovered I really enjoy doing it!! At the moment I'm teaching Mezame Returner, and then I'll be teaching Gods. I'm so excited. I'm proud of my dance skills and I like that I can apply my years of work into a hobby that I actually enjoy. At first dance was a chore, but now I've turned it into something I can enjoy, and I'm proud of myself for the skill that I have. I want to keep reading the ORV side stories - because GET THIS - AN ANIME IS GONNA BE MADE?? I'm SOOOO EXCITED! ORV is essentially my life. I read the webtoon in 2020, then finished the novel in 2022, and now my mind floats in and out of the series. I may not be reading it at the moment, but the series wholly changed my view on life, and I'm proud to call myself a fan of it. I don't like interacting with the fandom because this is my one series where I'll read it mindfully, and as far as I'm concerned, this story was written for me. So, I really want to start reading the side stories again because Cheon Inho is really cool, but I keep procrastinating. I also want to make myself an OC for my cosplay account because I've been trying to get back into my dance/cosplay. At the moment, my main friends I see is Maddy and Peek, Emma and Chris, and Lucia. I talk to Yasmin, Noah and Brooklyn online a lot, but we haven't hung out in a while, which sucks. I like my highschool friends, and we don't hang out much. I also see Aytron sometimes. I've just come back from my 2024 Down South + Rottnest trip with Lucia and it was so fun. I've been trying to take pictures on my polaroid, so I've got a few. And I posted some on my instagram as well. Also this year, I've started to see a psych. I really like going because I like what I get out of it. I really like the worksheets and doing some reflection on myself if nice. Recently I brought up the fact that I might be autistic. I don't know if I am, and I'm starting to think that I'm not. I'm not sure, maybe I'm just normal and looking for a label to try and explain why I'm weird, but I think it's probably just my personality. I'm not really sure. When I go next, Leila said we can look more into autism before I bring it up to my mum. I want to tell her that I know I really thrive when I feel organised, but I struggle a lot to maintain organisation. And I procrastinate a lot, which sucks. Maybe it's ADHD. I genuinely have no idea because my self-reflection skills are bad. I've taken a couple MBTI tests over this year, and recently they've all been returning as ESTJ. So, that's me! I think it suits me well. It's really ironic, because I turned up as INFP throughout highschool. I actually think that I chose the INFP answers because I felt bad choosing what felt more accurate. Now I feel happy that I've gotten an MBTI that's closer to me. I guess at the moment I'm trying to figure out who I am, what I like, and what makes me who I am. I'm ESTJ. I think I like archaeology, maybe law, maybe astrology. I know I am capable of a lot. I might be aromantic. I genuinely don't know. I'm currently speaking to this guy online who I met on Bumble. his name is Hunter and we get along really well. Unfortunatley he lives out 40kms from where I am. A long way... I think I'm aromantic, and probably asexual too. Hunter and I are going to play genshin together soon. ESTJ, aromantic and asexual, possibly autistic/ADHD?, and about to study archaeology. That's a lot of A's. I'm literally just a god. I'm just a genius. Preach. A song I found yesterday is called Soul Vacation and it's really GOOD. It's SUCH a catch. I'm in a music slump at the moment so I'm jumping between my Jujutsu Kaisen playlist, my life is good grooves, and my generic on repeat playlist. It feels really dry and I need to keep listening for results at wrapped, but I don't have a specific song hyperfixation this year which sucks. But, I have been keeping up with my song of the day. That playlist will be a historical RELIC by the end of this year. I wanna write fanfiction. My new years resolution was to write a slowburn, but I haven't done that yet because I haven't been able to settle onto one ship. UGH. Maybe I should just write a really long found family between Gojo and Megumi, given I've read all the good ones already. I just don't know the whole source material yet, so I'd be a fake fan. ****. I really just be talking about the things I'm into and not about myself. HMmmm.,, OH!! I went to supernova around two weeks ago dressed as Raiden Shogun from genshin, and OH MY GOD! I was at a social performance PEAK. I don't know WHY or HOW, maybe I just brought out my inner goddess ESTJ. But it was so fun. I told Maddy and Peek in the car that my goal was to find my Yae Miko counterpart. And, I did! Their name is Anemi and we walked around together for a bit. I got their instagram and we chat, and we wanna cosplay the lantern rite Shenhe and Ganyu together. It would be really cool to see Beth there too, since she was also with Anemi at the time at Supernova. AHHHH. I'm so happy I made another friend. HEHE. !!!! Okie it is nearly 11:30 and I wanna sleep. GH