A letter from July 19, 2023

To my almost, future attorney, Miguel, MJ. Hi, maybe right now we're both finished with our degrees and I want to congratulate the both of us for surviving all those freakin' tough years, so proud! Anyway, I don't know why I'm writing this one, but if ever you have received this and read this, I hope and pray that we are both happy with our lives, striving for our dreams that we have once told each other. So, this letter are random words that I wanted to say at this moment, so you must bear on how I put all my thoughts with this since alam mo naman na magulo aq when I'm delivering the words I wanna say. Anyway, Idk why we both stopped talking and why we end up like this after everything. But still, I'm hoping that you're okay and doing fine. Lol. Why does it sounds like I'm writing a cliché story here? But yeah, I always stalk your social media accounts; fb, twitter (kaso epal ka, nag-private ka ng account) and even our playlist on spotify if you added a new song just to keep myself updated with you. Oo nga pala, tinanong mo kung inalis ko ba yung mga kanta na inilagay ko do'n, well, oo. Tinanggal ko kasi baka irecommend mo pa sa iba, edi eguls. Charot. Part lang yun ng pag-iinarte ko sa bohai. Ykw? I even message your inactive Twitter account just to vent all the things I wanted to say to you cause I don't have the urge to say all those personally with you. Gusto kita i-chat kaso ayoko naman magfirst move, mamatay muna ako bago mangyari yon. HAHAHAHAHA. But seriously, I missed you. I missed us. I miss talking with you sa text and tg (pandemic days), discord, and messenger. Idk why pero sa'yo ko nailalabas yung pagiging random ko, I mean yung kahit walang kwentang bagay nasasabi ko sa'yo. Hays. But even I'm missin' all those, ayoko na rin makigulo sa buhay mo. Parang ang kapal naman ng mukha ko kung gano'n. I knew I hurt and took advantage of you, many times I guess. Ewan q ba, di kasi ako sigurado sa buhay pati sa lahat ng desisyon na pinaggagagawa ko. Pero honestly, I'm so grateful to had you in my life, you're a genuine person I met. Thank you for all the efforts you had made for me, grabe ka lods. Solid. So, you deserve someone who'll reciprocate all those efforts, someone who'll love you purely and genuinely and definitely, that's not me. Feeling ko kasi talaga hindi ako for romantic relationship, and hindi ko deserve. Red flag kasi si anteh at puro mixed signals. Grabe ba. Charot. But, honestly, I actually liked you it is just that I am too coward to even admit it to myself. Also, I don't even know how to show my affection towards you. (Sana wala kang girlfriend kung mababasa mo to, nakakahiya. HAHAHAHAHA. Block na lang kita after ko isend i2 or pagmalapit mo na tong mareceive.) Kasi naman, if only if you asked me, maybe we worked out. Lol. Gusto ka na nga no'n ni mama eh, sabi niya lang sa'kin hintayin muna aq makagraduate. Hays. Kasi ba't bigla mo kong di kinausap? Dati ka yatang gago eh no. Kidding aside, I'm still wondering why we ended up like that. Christmas and New Year had passed without you greeting me. That's why I assume na you have someone else (agoi) Pag tinatanong ako ni Justin no'n, kung kumusta ba tayo ganito ganyan, sabi ko wala na may iba ka ng gusto inassume ko rin dahil sa mga sharedpost mo sa facebook. HAHAHAHAHA. Tapos by February, you sent me a message then left me on read after replying. March, April and May had passed by I tried to make landi with others pero wala, binabaliw mo ko be. Shutacca. HAHAAHAHAHA. Pero anyway, hindi ko alam kung active ba tong email na pagsesendan ko nito. Basta bahala na. HAHAHAHAHA So this is the last part. HAHAHAHA. K. Bye. Lol. Praying and hoping for your genuine happiness and success in the future, Attorney! Till we see each other again! (even though I hope not to)