A letter from Dec 29, 2023

Dear Future Self, Are you still alive? On this very day, you promise you'd end it all. And here I am wondering right now if you're still able to see this letter. If not, then I hope you're somewhere you'll truly be happy now. If yes, then I have some things to tell you. I'm proud. Thankful even. It just means you really still have the strength and willpower to push through despite everything going against your way. Despite thinking that you don't deserve anything that gives you happiness. I hope you'll still keep this up. And probably this time, won't plan out your passing. I hope you make friends, work out on yourself this time, and promise you'll be even better to yourself than you were for these past years. That is all, take care as always. Love, Your Past Self.