A letter from Jul 15, 2023

Dear future LB, You're 19 now and it's been a whole year. I wonder in what ways have you changed. When you write this, you were going through a rougher patch of your life and honestly I think you were just looking for answers. I really do hope you've gained some more stillness and peace of mind. What did you get up to today? or what do you have planned? Who is the most interesting person you've met recently? Where do you live now? Have you visited London again? What did you eat today? Have you been dancing? I'm sure you've improved. I wonder how you have your hair styled and if it's still the same colour. How are your studies going? I'm sure you're still writing poems and scripts and I hope it's going well. What was your last poem about? Was it dedicated to someone in particular? Speaking of, how's your love life? I think that this period in your life was a period of self-discovery after coming out of a relationship, so when you're reading this, whether you're single, crushing on someone, or in a relationship; I'm sure you know yourself better than ever. Kind of like the camera lens on your life was blurry and you just needed to clean it. So I hope you see clearly now. Have you spoken to Zach recently? Did you guys ever get to hang out? If you did, I hope it went well. What about driving? I'm sure that your braces are off at this point in time, I hope you're enjoying your long awaited smile. Spoken to your brother recently? What about cooking and baking? I hope you've gotten back into it. When you were writing this, you were still planning your gift for Zach: a pink hydrangea painting and a poem about nature, as he loves those two things. Unless something unplanned happened, I'm assuming you've given it to him by now, I wonder how he reacted and I hope he liked it. Which books have you read recently? I hope you managed to get a hold of 'Faithful' by Alice Hoffman, you've been wanting to re-read it for 2 years. I hope you've made new friends that are kind and are still grateful for those who helped you along the way I wonder if you have a piano now, if you do I hope you're playing it, if you don't then make sure you get one... I'd like to know what cameras you have and are using to film. I hope you found good locations too. How's your 5 year journal going? I hope you're still filling it in, if you haven't today and you're physically able to, please go and write in it. I'm kind of going back to basics here, but I hope you're eating enough fruits and vegetables and drinking enough water. How's your mum doing? What about her job? Is she taking jazz dance classes? Do you have a job? If you do, what is it? When you wrote this letter, you were sending your CV around the whole city, so I wonder if you got any replies. Remember to wear sunscreen and make the most of the time with your mum before going to university. Take lots of pictures and take care of yourself. I love you LB