A letter from Jun 01, 2023

Peaceful right?

A personal letter, penned on 1-06-2023, by Aiyana Deshpande, age 13 Dear Future Me, My god, I can't even imagine my life further than where I am now. It's crazy to think that one day I might actually read this and remember this moment where I, a newly-blossomed teen, am sitting on my living room sofa, waiting for dinner, and writing this. Let me cut to the chase, I wanted to ask a few things. How's life? Right now, hmm, won't say it's the best. I'm still a teen going through the most rigorous and daunting of physical and mental changes. Basically, we are NOT at our best, physically. We've gotten better (redirect to: Keto diet) but I wouldn't say this is our goal. We also hope to do better at school, more importantly, become Assistant Prefect in 8th grade. That would be a dream come true, a dream which I really hope does come true. Do we make it happen? It's okay either ways, but still, I wanna know!!! I don't want to go on and on about me, here, right now. This is a letter to the fUtUrE, so let's keep it that way. Things I hope will happen, asst. prefect (of course), something exciting with a boy (no names), many amazing and caring friends and a better physical look than now. Sometimes, we feel it necessary to want to go back and change the past. I've felt that too, one move or one change, maybe 7 or 8 years in the past could have completely altered who I am at the moment. But often we forget that there's still time to change the future the way we want our past to be. It's hard, in the least, to change the past, but healthy to change the future. Really, I just hope we are better and happier than now. Are we? I really do hope so. I might send more than one of these letter, I'm not able to sum up even half of what I want to say in one! So long, my good friend! Aiyana, 2023

Epilogue

9 months later

hi! so hehe my autistic self didn’t see this letter on the day it was meant to be received which was June 1 2024. at least i don’t think i...

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El,vo.
,ynaiaa 2025.

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