A letter from March 12th, 2023

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I am so sad right now. I feel like everything in my life that could go wrong, is going wrong, which might sound like an exaggeration to you in 6 months, but at least you know where i’m coming from. We’ve got important tests in May/June, which I feel like have come far too quickly. By the time you get this letter, you’d have already done them, hope everything went well, and that you are relaxing so much, we need it. We have a job which feels like the worst thing on Earth, but the money is the only thing enticing me to stay. Well, I should say “did entice me”, bc currently I decided to quit. I’ve got a shift tomorrow, hopefully I quit then, as planned to. I guess you’ll know the answer to that. On the brighter side, we have good friends! I hope our friendships are still as strong if not stronger, because I don’t want to lose anyone. Well, other than that *one* person, I hope you tell me all about them in 6 months. Do we still talk to them? Did something large happen like a fight? I hope so, but only because it would be funny. Not much drama happens in my life anymore. Bit of a weird subject: what about our fashion sense? Do we still have the same weird emo thing going on, or have we finally decided to wear colour? I really hope you are enjoying yourself, and that you are happy. It’s been a really rough couple of months, starting this new school has just started the domino effect of life crashing down. You know, some days (like today) I feel so dramatic saying that (and i know you will probably cringe or something) but other days i think it completely true. I’ve slowly become my biggest critic and enemy. I feel like I can’t even do anything without berating myself and making myself feel guilty. I hope in the near future, everything feels fine. We don’t have to be completely cured or sorted out - ready for life and all that jazz - but I hope we just feel fine. I also hope our relationship with our mother is good, lately it’s been getting better and I would hate to see it plummet or smth. You have to keep going, even though some days you feel like you have 0 motivation, you have to keep going. For me, and for everyone else in your life. You’re not alone. You will be in Year 13. Hold out for a little while longer. Remember how good life will feel when we are rich and happy and healthy. I hope you have a hobby too, god KNOWS you need one. PLEASE STOP PLAYING GENSHIN IMPACT! From me. Or you. Us?

Epilogue

about 6 hours later

Who the fuck made you inspirational quote of the year?
We are in year 13. I don’t know why you thought it would be a calm, relaxing walk in the...

Rpka. ’sti yera linaf het. Rou !oe!sn!! of eht raye real ryezbe teh ppnhgneia oihgnnt reeh a:sl-elve. Dah aerdyla ieqtu nda sit’ ssle been a ,ekew ubsy ’vie tnha. .
Asd me uyo dsa ese ti ot meka odse. Feel em eehst kwon i esmka oswdr e,mni lilst btu ti werid aer. Rneev slmyfe seusg i stih rgwtini ti i bda elsrdaei otg, tpdeesi how. Siltl of a,sd era eey as ikle eth teh ti we somtr fo ecersdib ’id but now. T’si lmca it but itrgh ew stlli ihktc ear ni ow,n.
Our ‘otntprmai we ss’,tet uotba ailedf tehm qeuit dlayb. Aildfe llw,e fo our oervnsi. Sntdadra, yb eenv eth we ddi pryolo. Ti end teh n’atws utb, of rwlod eth. Htat egdrsa so avhe we vhea ,iriclhrflyoa up rpdpd,oe het kcsla ot oyu fro kpci you pcitddere aetk nwo i wlli ,nui thohlgau as dgoo tath tilsl. Em owkn dna i ont od a ti)nhgno iwll ijgnok, hweol me astp (i’m gmnaibl noly sa a.
B,jo uhoghtt uqti ruo hamrc ti ton erfuyrba ughaohlt i idd aws we ni. Hwit igicknst dneo wlle it you ofr. (oury rghti ti wrsod otn i tgrebian yaw ginamk mfro ovsslruee rae eht feel hikn,t enim) at godo ciseio,dn ihngts logthhau ospt eulsrovse ltgiyu hiwt ti su wsa dna now, tsale a dt’idn. I wno t,ricic you eltl gbsgeti.
Iaed ot aer be tuoa,b i aveh on uyo **neo uyo wchih oeynthsl sefiipcc no omer eopnsr ende. Lleayr nfyun ’thats ouah,lthg iuqte. Veah thta eht aied taynitsln vageu saw atth so i,met dlouw nlyo eamusds ssgue o,wkn i ti i ubt pernlveat yuo i a ta. Hetre nda whti we rkadaww hgfit dietnsra, aws klta blita(e lsilt od fo, owh tsi’ fi to no giktnihn ’mi them onscaonrtiev)s. Kwno not era niocalaootnrt,fn ew that uyo dna. Uoy for oa,sl otn ifgth, dotn’ ehop a utrly. Uolwd ads ti meka uoy.
T’si… ?snsee fnsihoa. Lindpegte. Rtoe,sh bcediers sibca istll gcnotlih eotrh rttbee hatn lr,moan ohagluth hent on, meo adsy st’i rmoe wried bbtyaab yes, is gthni sdya era gonig and id’ ot?gh dan as ti eosm. Klacb on jtsu oroucl,. .
Am oyu ekil gncrgnii uory me wsord a i erda at kboo,. Uobat neif, dhgenac hatt i ot ’im i sah idd is tiwer driffenet het tcypleolme pa,st f,eni od hnogtni nogihnt lfee eelf so tath do yuo tub ew n,wo apyhp. Htor?me hmeort ’tsi uro nad iwth god,o e’ssh oru. Odgo atts’h gneuoh rfo em.
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Hre…e shit ’otdn i elki ctiarone dsai hkint cautylal ’eiv ntisaorinip ot ever dha a ahwt uoy equti csuh. It ’tis ot yeslfm, retops a naht hragine nfdertfie ,mleyfs omrf. As vhea ubt to nto mi’ ,wsdro fo rnae,)os hvae a nwo oocslh egdainr otin aws (i i dna it eb,d in k,orwde i ailvd og wosdr am ic,sk way !tou wignnat oryu yuo a wtih. That a did oot mi“ inru the ikel you na,loe” ssgeu yadls is iotn at ,dne umch ewn it, dlot iebgn utb i i olhtaghu rneov,eltia ’tond i wo’nt tihs og ton. .
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Adn ,13 anc myeno ucprtngii big hiwt i’m we athyehl apphy ohsue a if,le eyar od uor dsoal fo s!hit dan. Eth low ew dan tyi,p /0055 otn fnynu escaube ot errtqua ew ym a ennhisg - ycukl? me helcid gntuiqti obyh,b me bwle rfo pm,ctia to am,eg het yeh,( atth aer on of slitl tath uptsid s’nti ryeal eb tath ouy aveh tgo ehav sht’at emna ’tdon of ew pordu app!) mbpelro n,iw autbo utjs but of a nymoe h’atts ilek oyu game a ruutef takl. Ni oot afr. .
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You m,e to fmor bcka.

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princyblogz:

over 2 years ago

Pls post the epilogue and link it as a separate letter 😭😭. I wanna read it so bad because of the “who tf made you inspiration queen of the year” LMAOO

sumayyafayziddin:

over 2 years ago

Were the "important tests in may/june" your as/a levels by any chance? I know how you feel cause i went through it too but with gcses, and you're right, they did come way too quickly but look we made it 🙏 🙏 got my results and I passed all of them. Now I have no clue what to do next and I'm so lost but hey, we just keep trusting that everything will work out somehow. I hope your results were good and wish you gl with year 13, dw we got this 🙏

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