A letter from Jun 05, 2022

Dear FutureMe, It's that time of year again. I think it's my way of coping with my life. Every time something significant happens I kinda need to get it out of my system. In this case, it's something that has't happened yet. The admissions exam to the Master's Oncology is next week on Friday. I feel both prepared and unprepared. It's odd because they just sent us two books and were like well good luck!! And these books are massive. I choose to focus on one of them which is on Oncology. So here I am the weekend before, studying a summary I found online of the book chapter by chapter. Googling practice questions and making every single one I can find. I'm doing everything I can do while at the same time still working fulltime and maintaining my own life. That's why I kinda hoped I'd hear back from the UvA on my admission there. At least I'd know if I had a backup or not. Alas, I haven't heard anything back yet. I sent them an email last week but they naturally didn't reply. I'm just gonna have to wait. I'm doing everything I can to pass this exam. But we'll see where life takes me. I'm a firm believer that whatever is meant to be for me will be handed to me if I work hard enough for it. And if I still don't get it, then it's just not meant for me. And that's okay. I still hope I get into one of these Master's. I hope by the time you get this letter you know what the future holds. Should I be looking for another job or not lmao??? I also hope this part if the project ends well because work is also very hectic right now. But hey, at least I'll have my first publication!!! With love always, Past you