A letter from Mar 12th, 2022

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, Hi this is your 17 year old self. How are you doingg. I honestly dont know what to write... okay since this is march 2022, it is exactly 1 year and 5 months ago that i wrote this email. Oh wow. By the time you get this, you will already have finished your 'As' exam and halfway through 'A2'....thats crazy. I hope you are...happy. like, truly and genuinely happy, like you always wanted to be. Hope you finally got to accept yourself and love yourself for who you truely are, i hope your mental health is at such a place where you feel peace, only peace and pressure of perfection. Haha i wonder if you managed to achieve the "glow up" that you've wished for since you were 14 xD. Thinking of that...so you will turn 19 huh? I wonder how that feels. Did you get your braces off?? How does it look? Does it feel as good as i suppose it feels? Can you finally smile fully without feeling embarrassed? Did you manage to come out of your introverted shy self and make new friends? Gosh im dying to know the answers i wish i could meet you. Did you get that iphone13 that you so badly wanted? OH SHOOT YOUR 'AS' RESULTS ARE ALSO OUT!! DID YOU MANAGE TO GET STRAIGHT A GRADESS?? Did you....manage to get a boyfriend maybe??- AAAA WHAT AM I THINKING. This anticipation will probably **** me🥲 Okay jokes apart...i hope you no longer cry yourself to sleep. I hope you have fulfilled the goal of losing weight and finally started a healthy life, both mentally and physically. I love you. Im proud of you. Even if you are not where you wanted to be, just know that your 17 year old self is so proud of you. Thank you for not giving up. Better days are coming💕

Epilogue

15 days later

Well hello to my 17 year old self. I wish I didn't have to disappoint you like it I'm going to rn, but I have to. You had too much...

Omrf lot em wnyas!ya nacdgeh ton a pnxtesatecio. Daberrmsesa ilsme ebscar hottwiu sey anc eys off now ieegfln llyaifn we ew and rou tog.
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Het hatt oogd dsen tub eerwh si swen. Wtreo eitm dit'dn oru tge in ew ew uro oipn,he ouy as,exm ew gtrahist ,up ddi a hte uhdafln hte ew snedrfi era ddt'in teg adn saerdg we nto egt ddi evah ttleer lstil iddtn' ,ewifobnydre ta rtrdeonvtie uor any saem lgow gte that.
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A uplceo ts'i ootkulo nwe uyo oknw efil hatt i ?new h'tsaw oag no ihst eedsircdov ubt hmnost. Nltaem etretl pu eitm umch bene ttha incse lnotu'dw 17 a gongwir schu i woh oyu eitm ti me has woret tsohr ynol teh dah in vleeebi tohsmn btu ouy. Oydben iewv cenadhg hte teh sye in kool tgooinrcien teh otuidse so adhnegc isltl hsa eht tub i may on wya i vi'e siedin ao,rs,enioiepptip,irfsflslehnedle meas c!hmu. Uy''o lgoner sexit woh no ewtor ti,sh. Now eon,eniiskrefrorionehncyig,imttaaolddlnlt,w dan are ,lngteeiltin cloo we hdaede meor. .
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Hte wsa osmt yna cmirlae itnpmarto ot tgnih em renalt ayhpp to otn akme i dpedne no. Arstted in ssipphena nnifidg sgthni mlasl me rnuoda i. Nigkowr eerdvyya egt i,kle mi' to i ahpnspeis kown hwta engu"ni"e sllti esorcl ot no'dt sfele it tbu. Rae 'sti otn to rtuh m'i ylon i'm dasy bceesua sllti ubt mefsyl ehret psee,l yrc vlhedmoerwe i nad ewhn baescue. 💕su ngerlo uhrt etl i eshotr on.
A hits yohlnt,es rascy is ordlw. 21 6 tou inwthi be l'il sh tnhsmo mvoe nthiwi tsnoh,m adn the rotcuyn ngrautadgi fo. Imte emor anp,giss ermo ghyntivree as ealr dna si is tteging. 'im dasecr. Hatt eenvr but i opts em? uwodl tle. Hgih evyer my deha ihtw 'im lelhencga tissf adn nosgtr reyad ot ktea. Mntohs tehes our elnra me ppayh ntigh pssapiehn to we ,si adn aevh noe huatgt hwo sle,svreou hte eb to ao!lne cteear ehva.
Yugl adn humc nthak ee'hrts nda me ndeeirmd woh gto msto ot me cuhm rof trwigni febero tfaeuiubl so daahe it a fo mrsto so isht alsawy uyo wianbro ttha ,me t💕erlet eth hai,eecv just acysr e'iv. I yam ehteir atht anedwt afr uoy eb ,eb too tbu em whree otn to a'itn. Do lli' su for ti. .
Nci🤝mgo🏻 adsy edendi betret ear.

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