A letter from Jan 13th, 2022

Dear FutureMe, It has been 3 days since you and him officially broke up. You cried every day since, the smallest things set you off. You seen his car whilst driving to work today and felt a full mix of emotions. Did he see me? Did it make him happy? Is he thinking of me? I still see a future with him. I can see him a my husband. I can see him as the father of my kids. But does he see that with me anymore? We broke up because he said his feelings changed, honestly what can I do about that? I struggled to accept and begged for a chance but my efforts were worthless and he is out my life, just like that. I believe he broke up with me for freedom. Freedom when with his friends to do whatever he wants, and not have someone to respond to. It hurts as I felt the most comfortable around him than anyone else I've ever know. he brought out a side to me that I fear I will never see again. I don't want him to move on, find someone new - who makes him feel like I did once. I don't want to imagine him with someone else, doing the things I want to do with him. I want him back, a fresh start. We may need this time apart to make us realise how we really feel. I know I'd take him back in an instant. I wish it would be in a few months but I know he wants to be single for his holiday which I'm assuming will be August. After that, I want to try again with him, I just hope he would feel the same. I love you :)