A letter from Dec 24th, 2021

Hi Future Ursula, If my calculations (and thoses of the website) are correct, you're supposed to recieve this the Decembre 24, 2022, a lot of things happened during this year, but unfortunally I can't talk about them all. By the way sorry if I make spelling mistakes, i'm getting not that bad in english, but I still have a lot to learn. You'll probably think of me that i was some stupid chick but I don't mind. I work really hard to stop that, because the past is the past and it does not lead to anything to judge your past selfs. Anyways. Things are not that good. I don't know what exactly so say. The first time I wrote to you I think it was in Decembre 2019. I had no idea what was going to happen in 2020 and we all agree (that past us, the actual me and you who are reading this) that it was a pretty bad year. I i'm pretty sure it was the beginning of all your problems. And the fact that you moved to another house didn't help. I don't regret that, I just think it affected me more than I wanted to admit it. And yeah. If you wanna know, i'm not doing that well. It's been almost 2 years that i'm stuggling. I didn't want to admit it too, but I think I really went to depression, and not just once. that was heard. I hope so badly that it's over in your time and that you're doing better. It's really hard. I started to doubt about by faifh ( I have no ides how to write that). I was so bad that I started to pray. I prayed for nights. But nothing happened. You wanna know exactly what I think right now? Why is he not helping me? Mom and dad say that he comes when we need him the most, when we're at our worst: if that wasn't my worse I'm not ready for the next part. I feel everything and nothing at the same time. I sincerely think I've got several mental illeness, but I can't do nothing. I'm still waiting for services and help, but they're all busy. It's gonna take a long time. I don't know how I'm gonna get out of the hole, and i'm lost. I don't know why exactly I started to write, I just felt the need. And that's it. I wonder how old is Tornado in your time. Everyone is getting prepared to go to church (it's actually 5:15 pm), but I don't plan to go, and honestly, I don't wanna celebrate the birth of someone who abbandoned me in the past two years so. I don't think dad and mom already know that, well they're about to. I hope you're doing good, sincerely. You deserve it. And Soph too. She's the best friend on earth don't lose her alright? She has always been there for me, and I think I wouldn't be there long ago without her. Take care of her. And never forget who brought back your passion for music: Hozier. If one day you become famous and finally work in music, remember to thanks him, because you wouldn't be there without him. And don't forget Hamilton, the musical. And Ismael. I so curious to know how it is going with him. Of course my dream is that something happen between us, but I know the chances are low. I really hope that you are close though. Never forget how much you have feelings for him. Knowing you for now, you wouldn't have the strenght to tell him with your voice, but who knows? You have matured in the next year. I am a queen when it comes to write a extremely long mail, and I could write so much more, but I think I'm gonna stop there. I just wanted to talk to you, to get out my thoughts (just a reminder, don't you dare stop holding a dairy, you hear me?) I really wish you the best, you deserve it. Ursula from the November 24, 2021