A letter from Nov 18th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I have been dreaming and just thinking about you every single day when I wake up. I am current the 2021 college going version of you. I am currently actually sat in my bed I was writing about the reality show I wanna continue where and who I will need. I am planning on being so consistent in my content and making sure that I don't give up posting videos every week. I really get inspired by Layos Choice and Adeola and I just really wanna do what they do and even better. Right now I'm finding it so hard to find friends that do what I want to. Thinking i have this block around having black friends and am really am trying. Anyways enough about me, I know you are living the dream. Almost 23 you knowwww you becoming a big girl. I already know that Ipyiy got the house you got the car you got the jobs you got the game you got the success and you got the businesses and I would like if I sa that I dontworry about you everyday. I know that I will have all these things but I feel like I am just not there yet or how will I even make it there when nothing in my reality rn is like moving. I am still posting on Insta I am still trying to post on tiktok and I got a youtube video coming through. Worrying en because my teachers and my parent expect me to be in a job and I just think that is not really gonna make me the happiest you know. There's always those doubts at the back of your head mostly my ego because I'm scared and because I maybe don't feel worthy. At the end of the day I will make you proud and I will follow want I want do and I promise to stick to it. As I recently told my mum I am going to be the first to be passing and changing for the next generation and even though there pressure to do the best for the kids, I also should do it for myself and choosing the best. I think I have spilled all the tea, just waffling!! I will stop worrying about you and I know I told you I know in my freaking blood and its like written on my forehead that I am going to be successful. God and the Universe will align everything for me and I'm not gonna get attached to the outcome and the how and just do my part. I would say like continue to enjoy your life and live like tomorrow is not promised you know and just have fun because you are that bitvh whether you are worried or scared! Ok lemme sleep now, from where ever you are, probably Miami goodnight baby girl.