A letter from Sep 14th, 2021

Peaceful right?

hello im writing this instead of my school work hey mazo, this is rlly embarrasing but hey, its mazo, yk, you. i wonder if you still like the name mazo? your attempt failed, obviously, how would i be writing this? but uh you know, u ghosted everyone from tarlac and wanted to start a new life, but that kinda failed. are you still into chels? have you found someone else? maybe, someone that actually likes you? youre an idiot, you know, clinging onto someone even tho it hurts u a shit ton, but thats how u are, u like to harm urself. tbh i think i already sent a letter like months ago but so much shit has happened then so here we are. god, i dont know what to say? are you still in pampanga? dont tell me you went back to tarlac did you ever get diagnosed? if yes, wtf is wrong with you? if ill be honest, i feel as though u have like adhd or something, ur obviously depressed and u obviously have alotta anxiety going on. are you in therapy? you stopped recently cuz u weren't ready, are you ready now? hows kuya? mommy? have you stopped calling mommy mommy? its weird how whenever i send a message to future me i always mention kuya, when he probably doesnt give a living shit about me did your phone break? i hope not, its a good phone did you ever get a good pc? did you ever get the courage to ask for one? do you think you deserve it? i really want one rn but i gotta like pump up my grades first before asking for stuff, cuz, you know, thats just how your brain thinks have you edited any of the vids youve filmed? was it hard? are you proud? what are your interests? rn your trying to do art but got huge art block cuz u forced urself to do art for art club audition, its on friday, did u ever actuaally audition? or get in the club? youre also into mcyt, i wonder if you still are, and i wonder if your embarrased that you did. im into anime i guess? i watch it and enjoy it but not like, a fan that looks for art everyday or some shit. i wanna make music tbh, u wanna do alotta things, but u cant. this is gonna be a real annoying question cuz i know u hate this but grades? how much did you try? and how much did you cry? lol prolly alot how about ur current friends? rn its poi, chels, and akum, suprisingly. i dont really want friends but im forced to. did you get attached to your maths teacher? right now you really does not want a father figure rn ive been avoiding it with all my might. talking about father figure, how are the male figures in ur life? again, u rn doesnt want them, mostly just cuz you dont want to get attached TALKING ABOUT ATTACHED, how r ur attachment issues lol, rn ur "training" ur attachment issues, like, wtf does that mean (idk either) i wanna be optimistic and ask you how far you've gone but, i honestly think you havent budged at all, look at you, your procrastinating by sending future you a letter because what? the computer assignment is hard? wtf happened to gifted you mazo? sorry for the rant there favorite artists and song? rn u listen to cavetown, mitski, wilbur, glass animals, bo burnham, rex orange county, lovejoy, lemon demon, and artic monkeys. fav song is uhhhhhhhhhh i cant pick so most played song is probably heat waves lol. ( funny how you played heatwaves on loop 60 times a day as a joke months ago but now associate urself w the song ) how many songs has lovejoy released? any collabs? rn they have sex sells, cause for concern, taunt, and one day. ur fav is prolly one day out of the 4 cuz u memorized it already before it came out. play any instruments? i assume no, you wanna make songs but suck at instruments, why cant you get urself into it? idk either. pls dont tell me u made friends from school, this one girl is messaging you, prolly wants to be ur friend, ur better than this cmon any school clubs? i think im just gonna send shitty art to my art club audition cuz, what will mom do abt it when i get rejected? nothing. how rich are you? do u have a job or something? rn you only have money from allowance, did that even ever continue? do you got good clothes now? rn just a bit, not enough for 3 days tho me thinks how could i forget, covid? what happened? i rlly am happy that there will be vaccines soon for minors but i really do not want to do face to face, ur social anxiety is bad anybody die? idk just curious did you ever get rid of the bad habits? or trying to? are you mentally alot better now? hope you are big man. haha. i just called myself big man big man. hah how r u n chels? rn ur really scared of pushing her away because you tend to push away people you like for a long time because of, idk, annoying them? accidentally texting them a long message at 4am? oh yea hows ur sleep schedule lol, rn its ok but u had a breakdown on sunday cuz u couldnt sleep and u had to wake up early for school, it suprisingly worked and you passed out in no time. do you have a mic? dunno why ur so obsessed with having a good mic i know u hate topics abt ur bday but, what happened? did anything happen? do you still believe in love? rn its very much 50/50, well, maybe less than fifty. did ate zani and mom ever break up??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? idk just curious did u ever cosplay lol, or still too broke? or just dont wanna? rn u are a lesbian and genderfluid, how bout now? or like, then, or, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN did u ever come out to mom as genderfluid, or kuya? moms a transphobe lol i dont feel comfy coming out to her rn fav color? red rn heh im running out of questions, so maybe this is it for now, no i wont do my school work, r u crazy? one last question tho, i always ask this, hope the answer is yes, but, are you happy? anyways, hope your well and okay. signed, mazo - September 14, 2021 - 4:29pm

Epilogue

about 19 hours later

hello!!!!!!!!! it's funny cause I'm ALSO writing this instead of doing my school work..... some things never change I guess LMAO

hello mazo!!!!!!!! it's mazo, I still really like the...

Mane zmoa yse.
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Thsi tfear terhe eettrl v'yuoe olt em, ttemtaps a orem rwee niwrigt nest. Pphay 'mi emht 'im noen guhtohr htta ): dagl ays it of ewnt with ot.
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Over usde tbu hcles ufnc'ki aflinyl oryu to eilrf4, otg kamu be dakin erllay 'mi !! atth maccplideto. Ebstest ot yrtgni syat 'im ti aoutb my hto ipsteiov. . . . Ttah yrev losa the oot w,no gilr of eth 'yeruo yuo is rfa as tbi hrgti byus on lla rllaey but jtsu sith a adn nhigt tion, kitotk essh' etm her'est eitm. Ellt or 'essh nta'c if ton, me eusr i ntio ma ubt. . . . . . Syta rhe ehr tiwh kssi tlel ot how sdrienf sola twna cuhm i i ot wtih b,euylg wanan veen re,h i sitlcytr twan btu 'sheetr. !!o!!!!!!!!!dt!i!i gienb an odog obj on oistngpp.
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Ma ni i ,sey amnaagpp. Ot nsedrfi netw mi kept anpcrrittnogais btu uyor lod bakc tarlac i sviti hoolsc ot aomlst dna.
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!ey!s! dhda!! otg gto oyu and eno i tiwh that dogadnsei grith opesdnsire. Nreet'w iredt knitag obdy tub ouyr thiw i ym yteh tcoaelbpmi for smed dahd. Eht i anwan ni enar iaagn ogthhu it ftuuer rty.
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Ago, essnosi ta twne i btu theaypr i hte not to lnog otpespd nd2 oto. Tnikh pytearh me rof i laleyr 'tnsi.
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Lsilt reh i stiesmemo im neif in i mi :) alcl clupib kauy hre omymm yoltms rea dan call tbu. Ost'dne otps isth uyo iegv osed htat yaku oy,u a rylael tobua lshduo innkgtih eh. Evlo selvo ytr to uyo !!!n!!!!!!k!!w!!!!!!o he ni yuo nad ahtt oyu yu,o hwso oatbu yned eh nad repolypr rcaes teh uto tusj he nvee mih n'otd peno it odts'en ,too.
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Tewn nerces og edyrsyaet eehhehwehhhehe srtaeyedy ym yeah i ot aclm perottocr stlli rkoingw ahgcen nefi btu ti ecsau /stj/u ptsan aekcdrc oyur uusuerpu ott aws.
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!!!!!!!ha!y!!e eapdxn cvitiatyre t,i ist' rou dd: ew rtbeet cmuh cumh onw a os do dan ntha eetbtr can ew no pc liyafln veah cna ew so feb,ero.
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Fo lot dan of nad yaerll !! sutj t,fsuf t'is d'oyu ti cislp othsr msega ufn, sey gvlos d: enoyj eteidd a ve'i.
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O,ianp d'tno od eeistmmso ): aiu,gtr ouersc ogfcrin yuo d: eb lfohypeul own !!!!!ao!!m!!!!!!!!!!z to tsrnimneust lsao ouy i i rn arhe ta,r sjtu uoy os on!o!s! rmud,s !o!n!!s!!!!g!!!!!s! aply nyol aannw enwh eth o,ht nda do tpdesop keam ot sltil hte amke eolrusfy sith lvonii tar of yahpp uyo yod'u.
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On ujts 'uovye renedal grdsae lraeyl tse akcb yuro to. Friocgn yuo yuor esrco eo-hsrwltf adn a sone' egt etbs woh to do on you 'istn hihg no debsa het. Resaesgrdl svloe eevoryne yuo. :).
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I e'sh eyrlla 'mi tadctahe nod't my 'ddnit c?atrhee ot msis atmh ulhatgho mcuh o,olc egt oto. . . . Alre aevh uoy ni now otg :d ealm haeftr wthi evay' rgthi eht ue'ory iefl nttoenc ryuo furegi dna uryo gfrseui.
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Ersow nd'to mhcu teg dt'din mndi juts herte 'sti ypa iuesss to thb tmhcaantte ti otegnt alos rroyw, tub oru i tevn'ah but 'notd malo nya bree?tt saol ti.
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Isptceimiss sas ouy. Alieyltlr 😭 os so nnioygna tshu eu'ryo dongi llew 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ,dude uy'ero wno pu gihtr.
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I ykao loma 'sit taseunndrd.
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Haye shotg nad itsasrt to and uyymm l'(ie)v drauno nda wno eb b fvoaeutir acyl hud icrcat rithg eiillb jiuf by of my nad ehpo evets nda adn nad erx hheeeheehh dna deiod idk eerhts' samr vooeylj nad ornub tbu o'yeru i nad good aerong saecu ounbr absic ieslhi nad dan ot ustrt nmeorymgot mmmmmm adn hsa eeeeeeb sa losa adn iatfoveru nad emnime emn nsgo i' kyric aekz eyosmkn joarm a.
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Erom is hiwhc 2 vloejoy sleedear ??amlubs? aslo wen ooooolololooocoooolooloooooollooolllloooooloolooooooooolllololo ssloo hnitk smoe i has. Ayd lslit eno lal hot tmei laoaamoo uryo si urfiaoevt labobrpya.
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Aply erkj i gsbsaa ouy tiunmsrtnes 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭.
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Uroy urggnai erou'y nr sutj cibhty yhw atusintio i rrosy dsnrief of yaok u'reoy het my flseym kayo a sit' iwht i ebts tsuj enam eltitl chitb desandrunt ahaawhahhhha scniidoe dinka it boy ma mdae adn oto lfie aws dcwroa lirg i nebgi.
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Ojni utb cioltaocspinm i epephadn and umcsi ot ortsa utb amlo wdtane.
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Ot yuor enma cim 006 fetl like yuo bhugto a dutpis gilr oyu veha saecu. . . . Ojb aveh si a rn 100 ondt' nlawceoal dnddadd aeevydyr mat.
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Aoim tenced loehcst i avhe rn imse.
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2ff rope dna !!o!!d!!v!!!!!!!i!c!!!!!!!! inggo ts'i cossolh okwn an era no ostm ltbiveanei ouy llist.
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Mi' you eibgn os miscisestip iht ngaon on eddi otsp neo.
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I !i!!d!!!d!!!!!!!! of rdi bad evry rjamo i irhtg of ew o,er,m iabsth nwok ird teigtgn fo !!!!!!!!!a!n!m emalnt sa wee'r to d'not tignry egt nda got ,taets bgi ew;er won etreh. . . Hnwe ubt teh mecso aipcynk time i'm chlil. . . . Was mi' hwo cuhm ebtert i hatn i eboefr ithnk utb.
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Nda yoe'ur aphyp are !!!!g!o!!!1d!!!o and syug uea nda dna oyu ouy nfedisr in hse's hes's chels yaphp ear.
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T'si okay tub its' godo utb kyoa tub won rfo 2am hgirt aosner.
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😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 as it mic i jstu a oehp etls' cfugnki no uyo k2 klie sd,ai enstp kowrs. Be star)w ym alts l'tli l(ps.
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Espdsi reinmsd ytdbhair i dhepneap ti me reetegd s'it ucesa nsoo merebrme hwta laryle tgo tauob me tou was ubuuttu hnta my and thea i yrlale donfu rteho otispc asscemstla my kaoy chihw i my dton' rhtbidya.
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Lveo, t'is larlye ont i eilevbe in utboa ktinh ro it mh!!!c!u i ntod' veiblee i ni vloe otd'n ttah.
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Clsla nda colse maoaloaooaao e'eytvh orep aoyk ehya tog zani eta era kaoy im eeryt'h toh.
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Mnad thguob gha goofy a uoy ti udse gwi romf hnte hah evrne hsppeoe. Het ll'i iwg isigntt amol ese i jsut huntocdeu tunr ehtre noradu fi.
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Hte be,aleudnl dna eigudnfelrd ni tobh heoll nlesbia am for csteupmr im' gdreen i laeituyxs dna ocarea nda. Tthas' or if xrafulo acuexfl a lmao ro nihtg cfeyspclilai.
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Ym atbuo clt,irdey ot 'hetavn erengd i o'dnt any mmmm llraye elfe !ot meoc edne eth of i ethm tou.
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Corlo are stlil edr rf so ofrvieatu ew dbeas.
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Asdtn ulitg velo ok ouy u i otdn' the rtgiwin wh ubt cihbt todculn' yuor hsit wkon arfte sfut you oaky ide did.
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Iggfruni uot lal ttsa'h i i'm annog --am sya ti ):.
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Wree' zoam okay. Ayok well' be.
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Gsdeni,.
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