A letter from Jul 21st, 2021

Time Travelled — 12 months

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, So I wrote myself one of these for three years from now but I wanted to also do one for 1 year and just lay out what I've been struggling with or pondering lately. I've been struggling with traumas from my family lately which I'm in therapy for. I've also been struggling with all of the hate, negativity, bullying, physical assault, ect toward myself and other vegan animal rights activists for simply speaking up for innocent animals that can't speak for themselves. (Watch Earthling Ed on youtube). I overthink my activism, always worrying if I'm putting negativity out in the world or beating myself up if I didn't stay as composed as I would've liked when people come at me physically or with words. I am doing a lot lot lot better than a year ago with my relationship anxiety, but I still struggle with my appearance sometimes. I notice a lot of other public letters on here focus on wanting to lose weight, be happy, graduate, figure out what they want to do with life, ect. Reading them makes me pause and realize how much we are all the same. Which is nice, after feeling so disconnected from society after what I've been through as a vegan activist. I know that by the time I read this I won't be struggling with everything I said anymore. Because I trust my manifesting abilities, my re-programming, my craft, ect. And I know I will be so much more happy and comfortable in my own skin. And so it is. We get to decide that our lives will be better from this point on. All of us do. I have manifested the love of my life, I'm pretty sure I have clarity about what I want to do. It's really all about liberating myself from the past now. It's late at night I'm here with Shitten and I gotta go do some yoga, I'm currently doing the 365 day yoga challenge which will be over by the time you read this:). You, reading this, will have overcome these issues. And so it is!!! You are so happy, thriving, blissful, and surrounded by love. You and your love are doing better than ever before, with all of those blockages long left behind. And we never look back. We are proud and confident in our own skin, not wanting to be or look like anyone but us. I can smell the candle in a tea cup on my altar. Today I played guitar outside until mosquitos gave me some raging bites. I was doing really excellently with being on my phone less, but some discomforting things lately made me"relapse" plus I decided I was being too hard and constricting on myself so I kinda let my no phone plan go. I figure I will get back to it though. By the time I read this, I no longer have anxious or depressed physical sensations for no detectable reason lol. I'm done with that shit. I'm doing everything to heal. It is done, very soon, certainly for you now as you read this. It feels good doesn't it? Remember when you wrote yourself a letter on New Year's Eve right before 2020, and you felt the feelings of your lover and you KNEW it? And then you got with him that March/April? Well if we can do that, we can CERTAINLY do this whole not being held down by our traumas and past thing. I am so free from the past, coated in love and forgiveness, and all my loved ones including ones I no longer connect with are healthy, protected, thriving, and happy. AND SO IT IS!! Alisia Demi

Epilogue

about 16 hours later

Dear past struggling 2021 self,

The only thing that did not come true was completing the 365 day yoga challenge.

But that was an ego-motivated goal so I am not...

Tsuep tuoab taht. I itsslcnetoyn nda do jnoye it wno bceuesa ti aogy jeony i nohueg.
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Fo 0122 was rwko ahsdwo a eyra rdah. Fo ftemrndraso asvde nniigfd rieostinlpha a den and yb het thi asw uro nda chatdeat" oomtbt 1022 ta eylpcmlteo krco boko eth. Ceon hbot nsitcfcol aigrzelin " tyhroe enatmhttca shti and ayes ruo how rwee ew edar to soelv btoau ecnseic. Hte a,lso book teh furo rtngmeaese. Esud have htsign is aerl a hiwhc slaciybla on dna rea be owh os ctonilcsf afr rmfo ew cyr hpyap ot. Dwno anc nsnsmsiuerandditg tminpsuss,ao yb ifengesl htsi" iertcd het eth of kmniga tsom uro rsh'toe blio eth tiagrccnip that 'im eus ont nda niamcuno,cmtio gidno sdnee lprerpyo ot amgse neebr peasel fo taht caeh eth snorep nelgtli tcrrceo ylfmse onkw uyo inclosfct twha ceetff nipgaly euo'yr hwo brwn,o otuab to ,hist inssgmnadtenu,rsid wnnigok aetisnd our si slkli if lteciy,rd esrexcie nda dneairg dilgntaiva adn ont os yorts dan atgistn s/"idaidd rhote.
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Rwok nad dan ewerh neve aeo,nl for d,o nto soed steinls not talk ustj to orespn erfof uaolnjr rppmot itss a t'nsode tiagh,nny epthayr ouy hte. I dboy sola a cdllae the tlo trmaua raed kboo sepke a ttrbee i creso dnaeuntsdr and the own. Oeaidtntmi, beat fo adn eons cnlfoict lal nad of i tmos r,ldeena thesor my phpya kiei,r i norspeeids ,dimn vhea dna now umdsigsiedntrsnan leahhty ddlreid yltirlela ueseabc stained of gviahn dna ,anftiafirosm vaeh ihtw all, iopsns,yh phsrntoliasei caubees iwth yortilatpmn of naorp-ermrmigg. Anc saol mcuh a ieaxnyt i sa haev ilspbsoy rsnoep do so tabe sa. Fo neswtsi be ,souhr eefl ma esassp wthotui a i it nda rdseesdpe reve osconsicu eht adn nerev wno nwikgno het t,i mreo ealb it sltas rtoo xyeltca aesuc athn e,vrne ewf i to sa. Bweteen is ttah nad fra enev dna few.
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Leik or ot aths tygnri asw esebcau fmsely i oe,elpp vttcasii eorptsen trhisg rmlepobs bgein ihwt my etnsdia eb iehagtnrl namila an etrho reew egibn ed, of. Nda meda soem a haev nwo i hwit mvtsiiac nagchse asinoprehlit :) siepovti. .
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I hatw preoiirtiz aletxcy wtah tou twih my fiel i wtah geuirfd nda wrtho ownk uot ot ntwa ot ehva nda xecatly i do ot. I ot no od od ntwa tcuayall od ealpse i eoplpe i lrgneo onyl nad sghnti igtnhs to.
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I ceepa ma htiw elepyltomc satp teh at. Taht tenvregyih adn vahe evah, eednde vtaieorsncsno i i ekli vfgaoer ot stlli ehrost ti emylfs tlef 'idtdn pu clur,soe editdi i i ahd. No ma i aiardf enolgr.
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No ttha ewer suebeca on fi my ligenef a ehosnt, hopen lsuiyvorpe eedn by setmhgoni eigens ym to neoph i'm trmuaa dulwo ydas of it advoi iterggr ym dtoavtiem,. Atth no si orccenn rnlego a. Nhope remo ernstegtnii odog ym a i fo ffo rsertgig lfie (in esrn,ec no si ay)w fiadar onw mi' 'awhst ont ealr ucsbeea ueaebsc be nca my a hatn.
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Okot teh adn mthe i 'tthsa im' ietwr anc won thwi hucm voer trtsele i oershrt t'htas veag yrae sthnig a of bscauee so eshte i os noagn csbaeeu sorehtr l,oev nneigds all a in alsog vceieha tmie nad all ,llo hntki uurfet idenadel aepmstni a. Si't tsaek sa sotl rtluy nevgi teim a galo hte allyuus olng sa.
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Gnnidse 2012 voel ot and efsl chmu ahingel my os.
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Aaiisl emid :).

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