A letter from Apr 22nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I really hope you feel better. Things aren't really good now. I hope you reached your goals. Did you lose weight? Did you choose a good high school? Did you get better at dancing? Can you play the guitar? How is it going in school? Do you have a roommate? Did you get some new friends? What's their names? What high school did you take? How did you decorate your room? I really hope it's green. What kept you going? Is mom calling all the time? How is it going for Andjela? How is Jovana doing in 8th grade? Is Andjela in England? Is it hard, you know, with life? Do you know what you wanna be when you grow up? Do you have your hair short now? Is it a shaggy wolf cut? Do you finnaly wear makeup? Did you get taller? Do you visit Jennifer sometimes? Did your clothes style change? Did you get a boyfriend? Do you miss Filipstad? Is it fun there you are now? Do you have a dance youtube channel? Is your fear of water better? Is Coronavirus over? I really hope it is. It's hard now. Did you forget any good stuff that happened? Do you still have contact with any of your middle school classmates? I hope you're not that lazy anymore! Get yourself together! You can do it! Make mom proud now, please... Study really hard and don't forget to rest... Are you eating normaly? Please do. There are so many things I want you to think about: Don't get too stressed. Work hard and prove mom that you can get a job. Make her the proudest mom. Let her see what amazing daughter she have. Call Jovana and help her with her studies. I know it's hard, but you can do it. Think about what you want to and will become. Write again here and send it to us when we are 19. I love you, please take care of yourself and others. Don't let me down. And, Happy Birthday. From 14 years old Kiki to 16 years old Kiki.

Epilogue

6 months later

Nothing freaking changed Kiki.
You are Sucidal!
You're still fat and ugly.
No you did not cut your hair.
Friends? You actually stopped being friends with Jennifer, but she's asking...

Latk to giaan ortrwmoo ouy her ot.
Eoms eprtty toehr oyu uto aokt in etrhe polepe ghan ear ohlsoc i?rdsnfe tihw. Rae heyt yuo how iegdnmai not. Ealyrl,ad noe lluyatac you wnok mhte of enell. Yan eoscl of ton utb ethm oye'ur wiht.
Ppruel uoy to is ti ocems oryu nda eliv ,oshlco thiw llsti henw omro ryuo ylmfai.
Suyngidt alpybrbo ol'uyl nda ueyor' nad ton scasl supäkaanhsslmkdl ygm ailf.
A yuo ybo fnu klei lschoo ni awst'h. Yuo npsa his aks nginthay yrt 'ruyoe owkn oabut tn'od adn orf onagn but ,hmi.
Aosl. . . . Day at 'yuoer naisofnftic wiinrgt 4 a the msetimose tlaes rshou d,ya oewlh.
Ot uoy ryeev item yuo pu rhowt yuo htae anwt oo,fd eat ?oofd.
Ruoy nemalt fo socloh bda eunsr sbaueec teh go ouy ot lethah dan. .
E?ncad month nceo yuo ekli in deacn esls a ro. Sllit it cna you but rteebt ddi skscu anth hte giraut? ylap dan argiut uyo. Reom onit now ery'uo pniao. Sngo new uoy on opnia a eth enderal. Enbsoteul yllae.
Nad you eevr anht orme flyami rea ehta htey uyor jggdiun lsilt. Nwo roews asw, ear eyht erve h'sse nenjefri mrpocea ttah ot tinoghn emht. Uyo ikadn hre issm.
Beeascu sukc ruyo oyslmt onw oot dnika rfensid.
Rof tmie fitrs you ndkur eerv eecsr?t ogt a the. A oyu rcide tol.
Aenytix a otg pinca ahdr dan d,ba dah ouyr tcakat osla oyu hebnaigrt si tiem.
Tfrgoo atth tiem uoy fnoet ays eus oyu ardh to abeusec thbargien tihneorla aevh. Od yuo uyor lsao dybo aevhwert hturs. Lyeral tefar uot you hhig awann era essrteds becmeo sohocl yuo tahw.
Penaut oppk hds,nicwa tnew a nda hfigrnic ccnrteo uyo ym on eyjll brutet oh. Hccke etmh tuo hte ,rose. Malify fllu thta caesebu an ti ruho eplca wnnaa aebsiuv ouy teh a nmea ricde ot ccnerto wsa os mcoe ogdo aerft hppay you eelav and igz,naam ti'ddn fro hte.
Away fi na,c etltil mcetonm utstr rejnfein ti fomr revye evil me ehmo run uoy nerief,nj vgsie htiw lltsi and ouy ohrtw is't.
Rungoye iretss sf,eurlyo dya own eilk ttha uyo essgu kntih to ellst yuor lilk yevre so ew.
Inlivg andik het mimi ovle ouy si night tgare, nloy. Bset ouy, ocolsh nhav'et him encsi yob oyu ense diernf hogst laso rttedsa ftle ruoy you gihh. Era omhe in lal shrtoe etlf teh rtoeh and.
Oyur no own yuore'.
Casotnffnui yuo ni if deyamadsr otunc oryu 'tond teh eppoel and ubftlieua lal fo.
Pormbel hwti eayh, ddyaeniragm oyu vhea llist a. 'ist erve tanh orsew.
Eid! ouy epoh ybe!.

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