A letter from March 31st, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, hey!!!!! how are you i hope youre doing good and happy hows your dysphoria going? is it as bad? did u get a binder? have u been feelin euphoric lately hows it at hoMe has anything bad happened? didanyone find out about THE secret? hows school? are people accepting there whats your ********* or are u still confused? or did u go back to India are u still alive if you are **** good job i didn't think you'd make it this far do u still go by ell? is all our friends still in our life? did u get diagnosed with autism or ADHD finally? are you out to more people? how do you look is your hair grown back again :( ?? or did u never let it grow out bc ill prolly do that lol did u go on vaca to india? have met any new friends? are u still friends with kai ? did you leave more people like u always do? did anyone actually stay? do you still love benji *** much? are u still talking to faiha? have you et someone that makes you happy? you deserve it haha what about animes whats your favourate ? how many friends do you have ? did u get those cute cloths you always wanted? do u still have to sneak outside? is mom treating you any better? is dad still okay? how is our brother doing? hows school? any better ? if not its okay baby i know its hard :/ do u still live there? hows skateboarding going? u still going to tuition? are you happy rn? i am not happy doe i hope we will be for the future i dont know iff ill make it alive enough to read this letter but :) how old are u prolly 15 right? is covid over yet? are schools open again? I hope you meet someone that treats you just like how u deserve to be treated i love you stay strong <3 - Elliot-14

Epilogue

4 months later

hey!!!!! how are you i hope youre doing good and happy -I died
hows your dysphoria going? is it as bad?- not as bad as it used to be
did...

Em egt u buothg dr-e?nbi fro xe a lgirenrdfi yhae wot rou.
I -lnlatideaky u eflnie tol ipchorue totikk ym evah nfidcenoec ttdaesr eben igtboosn nebe its :) on a ogpntis.
Ti a sah espsrure abd otl igyanhnt at heom hep?epdan btu not swoh be euds ot abd it of as.
Enpoe ddi neyoan sc?eert tboau out fndi eth.
Tis dsyitnug hte adb i okay sbroad maed flia but hte efw ersindf hs-l?oco nonga im show si a rpta.
Id aer ylitsxuae eshs be u opelpe epcnticag erthe enrdsif nefidr a ): ro uory utb os nda olpepe hswta inrgca i tlsil are era ithw evern adme eimniagd i ?-cunosdef mose wne enic.
Dog idd ot hkatn cbka u i- ntddi’ or og idnai.
Afr i u ojb dnma fi ddt'ni hist amek you era illst ir-rrk are godo ti douy' vlaie nkith.
U lle? ot yb yar ackb i tenw gincer asw on- ell do og istll.
Rae elov lsto tlsil rou i elf-i? our htem i ni sendirf lla eno eth tsre si.
Did tge iaflnyl? u dahd no asumti thwi ro dgnisodea.
Than emro lppeeo eorm uoy rae yelspp-?eoe 008 ot tuo.
Hwo taotyll do em mashs odluw okou—l oyu.
Eenv taht ?? vrnee :( nerev idd u ruyo abck let cb lli :) ecedahr wrog nrwog pllroy aniag ro do uot ti lhruoeds irha is l-ol ym.
Og aiid?n u to ddi cvaa on on.
Ewn hcbun eniefd-rss?y a i emt have nya emht olev.
Era tllis u ysse insdrfe wthi ak?i-.
Up lppeoe ihst ilke vage aawlsy doi?m- veale mero iwht so smdneit uyo u ddi dlag i was onnaiyng.
Enyoan -a?sty yes ysdeta ltuclaay amiptnrot ddi ryeeoevn.
I od imh eys pu utb no dnto’ velo sltli you ylrl nbuhc ebijn ssa mhc?u cchek loev hmi i.
To so ot ear as a?iah-f eenv we llist ndisref i podur ocen dna nakltig du amce u eb tem uto up reh.
Ia?p-phy nsomeeo uyo esh htat ouy met ehva utb idd ftle smake.
Whats resveed hcgnatwi ti uoy ehmt -? inmsae uroy tdpsope thwa aoerftavu haha i abtuo.
Uocdl owh do eirfsdn erve amyn ermo niaegim u ntah ? yuo have.
U wylaas did tehso uyo ucte entw?ad ubt egt aamgen ytcelxa n-ot i closth.
Uosi?det u ot vhea eepeeneeoe ekans stlli od.
Esy mmo attnrgie si any uoy e?etrbt.
Ehs nema omesimest i ?aoky illst tub ovel is add ihm.
Lasawy our is ady hbetror on the ielk oolbrx don?gi woh lal tbse.
Hclsoo? tetbre on ayn ? hows.
Hwo /-: byba be yoak radh ist not wkno msis fi i i i etwes sude ot tsi.
Yse istll do u rt?eeh live.
Neo hows i dgrabnoasitke new a o?gnig btohug.
Liek i my ioggn wne trch llits nttuii?oi hctedwis to u tteebr.
Ma ear nto yuo -?rn aphpy i on.
Fro eht rueut-f pheo doe i so ew be i hoep oto ma wlli pyhpa i ton.
Geuonh :) ared lil ti isht maek tub iff ownk ot ivela eltrte i nodt.
Who 51 are ghti?r u orpyll odl.
Ovre nidak yse its ethre is dcivo - t?ye gi.
Ainga? sey era sohcosl neop.
U who tee-dart tib yuo a esud tbu epoh you i ot lkei teme onwd nosoeem eb ewtn rdeevse it ot i rtaest illh ujts ahtt tberte ofr ubt i ki vereeds.
Tya1orl-l14i5-e- uyo tyas - <3 ovel ogtsnr i.

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