A letter from March 18th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, hey i hope you are doing well! Today is one of those Thursday evenings, just Deeping the way we think about life thinking and debating everything. Corona had messed us all up so much and i really hope by the time you are reading this that every one had the vaccine and we are all doing well right that health wise sorted. now lets talk about our mental state. Right now you really wanna be high you want to take the things you know that your gonna end up regretting like wanting to drink, wanting to stay up late and wanting to just do those things that you know that if something goes wrong there is no turning back! we are having the hardest time in school. It was just recently that my best friend well ex best friend showed her true self. she showed what a ***** she really is. i was hurt and i needed someone not gonna lie i still need someone, someone to tell me everything is going to be alright that things are going to get much better that things well things will be things. Now the thing is right now no one knows what's really going on no one knows that you have your own issues no one knows that you are putting all their issues in front of your own. right now we are prioritising every single person that is in our life right now we are being there for other people. right now i am staying up late talking to people people who are struggling so much with lockdown and corona and people who are experiencing relationship issues even tho i am not in a relationship never have been in a serious one but as ever one says i give the best relationship advise (as they say coaches don't play(god this is so cringe and imma regret this but anyways)). im helping people with family issues friendship issues people who are debating their life and its tough because i stay up late helping them i make time for them and when they have the confidence they have when they feel good they forget about me they only remember me when they need someone to cry on when they need someone to tell them that everything will be arlight. i just want someone to ask me if im okay, how i am doing like really doing, i need someone to look past my smile and say why you faking being happy all the time i just want someone to be there for me like i am always there for them. it tough you know, being that person people always asks help, being that person who is always there for them. who ever is reading this please do check on the people you don't talk to daily event those who you do talk daily too check on them ask them how they are really doing, you never know you might find things out you wished you knew! its really though but i really hope by the time im well you are reading this things get better i really hope mayyyyn im just hating life sm rn and i hate it more and more everyday i just want to scream so loud and urghhh i just wanna kms but hey i gotta be there for those who are counting on me :) have a good life if you didn't give up keep ur head up queen!