A letter from your biggest fan

Dear FutureMe, HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!! I remember that I have always struggled with who I feel that I truly am. I have a tendency to transform into different personalities when I am around different people. It has been quite a journey growing up and deciding how I want people to view me. Middle school was pretty rough for the first half. I changed friend groups every time I blinked. High school was different every single year. Writing this as a senior in high school, I have noticed that recently I can not quite remember my life in Montana. It feels like everything that happened there was a fever dream. There are people that I was close to that feel like strangers now. I remember thinking that no matter what happened, the bond between Cora and I was unbreakable. I know now that any bond I create with someone is breakable. My advice to you, Liz, is to surround yourself with people that you can be your true self around. Be with the people that make you feel great about yourself. You are a truly amazing person. You are hilarious, compassionate, kind-hearted, witty, brilliant, and gorgeous. I know without a doubt that all of these things are true. They are scared of women like you. Women with passion fierce enough to start wildfires. They are scared of what they can't tame or understand. You have been through so much Liz. I am so proud of who you are. If you have a boyfriend currently, I am so excited to meet him. I have kept up with writing letters to your future husband, and I am so excited to meet him. If you haven't yet, that's alright. At least you can focus on your career. You should be going to law school soon. Hopefully, you can get into Baylor Law. I get butterflies thinking about my future. I just want to see the day where you are a badass in the courtroom. I know right now that things are hard financially, but you will be making BANK as a lawyer. I just want to give our kids a better childhood than I had, but still teaching them valuable lessons. I am sad that I have this prejudice against rich kids. I know that I had it rough financially growing up, but there are so many people that have it worse. I know, I know, I hate saying that stuff. Who cares that someone else had it worse because that shouldn't take away from your emotions? You have a right to be angry. I just don't want my children to be angry as well. I have no idea what problems you will face at 21, but I am scared that they will be a lot worse than the problems I face now. I haven't been doing great lately, and I do not want to think of the idea that I have it good now. If it gets worse from here, I want to stay in my bubble. Please, let me just be happy for moments longer. I know that now you are facing the "real world" or whatever. I hate to say that I haven't done much to prepare for it. I am assuming that you are making your own doctor and dentist appointments too? I am not ready for that level of adulthood yet. I hope that the world still hates millennials and boomers because that **** is funny. Gen Z for life. As a little time capsule moment to close, My fav movie is the Phantom of the Opera. Fav song is Wish You Were *** by Billie Eilish. Fav food is chicken alfredo. My closest friends are Abi and Bella. I am doing dual credit classes at NCTC and hating it. I really don't like school. I do not like English either. Maybe I do not want to major in it... I am trusting that you are making great choices for us. I am trying to do the best I can as a teenager, but you are an adult now. Your life is just now starting. Your best days are right in front of you. Please grasp every opportunity and live in each moment. I will quote a Wallows song now, which is my favorite band I might add, "We were running to grow up every weekend, now we're watching the moments as they leave us." I love you, I'm proud of you, and you are 21 so if you want to celebrate by drinking, go ahead but also if you do, I'll tell mom and dad <3