Hey, this is me from a year ago!

Dear Me-in-a-Year, I guess I'll start with how I am now. It's a few days from Christmas (wow, only 6); I am leaving for vacation later this week, and, I got my license and my first pay-check (about $176) in these past few weeks. Other things, I am interested in astrology now, and I hope that I will be a year from now. Also, I am -very- much hoping to be fluent in German by the time I get this back... I'm in my third year in school of it by now (heh, so many prepositions in that sentence...). Let's see, what are some of my other wishes or goals for a year from now? I want to worry a lot less (will I have been successful by then?), that's for sure. I've already worked on it some (in that subconscious way that seems to mostly just happen). And now I might as well go on about emotional state sort of stuff. Now, I am fairly happy most of the time, although I do get stressed now and then, and sometimes I am depressed. I am feeling good for the most part about my friends... Jenny is, I think, one of the best friends I have had thus far, she sacrifices so much time and energy for people and for me (I'm a people, too, I guess ^-^); Danny is a great friend too, although sometimes he'll say something that my over-sensitive Cancerian moon doesn't take well (although I -did- need him to say something when I was going on about Tuesday being a day of the week... hopefully I'll still understand at least the Day of the Week reference in a year, but that sort of term is difficult to forget), otherwise, Danny is one of those friends that is a great confidante... I wouldn't just randomly tell other people, or other friends, I guess, some of the things I've told him (I remember distinctly that I did not tell one person about any day of the week, and I realized later how good of a decision that had been.). I've never had terribly many female friends, and girly female friends at that, but Brytney is one of the few. Actually, come to think of it, I have not ever had a girly female good-friend before Brytney (but there were girly acquaintances before her). She's a good person to go to when something is messed up and I'm angry, like when I was having issues with Casey. And onto my next top five person. Watch, I'll end up regretting putting all this stuff, since it will go into the realms of thoughts-pushed-aside. Ok, the other person is Jordan. He is my significant other, and has been for two years, or perhaps a year and three quarters. First of all, I'm finding even this little bit difficult to write, just because when I first knew him, I had a crush on him and tried to get myself to not talk excessively about him or do any of the stereotypical infatuated teenager stuff (although, I did not feel any strong desire to write his name in the bathroom stall or write my name with his surname over a huge notebook... I think I only did the latter once, and the former I -know- I never did). Now we'll get into all that sort of writing therapy crap... well, eventually, anyway. I think it did start out as a crush, a strong one at that (but, then, I always seem to get obsessed with things when I initially get interested in them), but I think/hope that it progressed into something a bit deeper and better. I don't know that I would be making such a... protected, middle of the road sort of statement, but (and here it comes, the writing therapy crap!) I am not quite sure what how he feels about me. Part of it is that I'm rarely very sure of where I stand with people, and I guess that a significant other sort of relationship would be more important for that sort of stuff. The problem with all that stuff is that he does not express affection very much (although I do have to laugh at his "verbal hug" statements). I'm wondering if the situation will be better a year from now... it's not bad, it's just that I would very much enjoy for him to say that he does care for me and that he does like my appearance, you know, or whatever else. And, some last stuff on this topic, I hope that he and I are still together (god, that's too much of a cliched phrase) a year from now. And another hope put into words, I'm afraid about a day of the week das ohne Abbruch ist und Suppe mit einen andere Mensch hat. Stupid fear, I hope, but I'll have found out, besides, I know that I have stupid fears now and in the past. Alright, what is my new topic, if I have one? It's a bit late now and I might be tempted to call almost a full page of 10 size, single space font enough. So, I'll be reading this in a year, hopefully I'll have forgotten about it by then (great, now'll I'll remember it... actually, nevermind, I'll probably only faintly remember it, but I'll have forgotten to think of it.) Hopefully everything works out well. Jo-Anne PS - I'm sending this so it gets to me on the day the sun goes into Capricorn. A cardinal sign seems to be a good time to start things anew, and I probably will in some way change myself or perhaps notice some significant change that has already happened. I'll have been going through a Lilith return then, that will be interesting... I would find more aspect stuff, but it's getting late, as I said before, and I really will go.