A letter from May 24th, 2020

Time Travelled — almost 6 years

Peaceful right?

Dear Me Are you scared? I know we thought it would never get better but does it? Do we stay with Aurora or do we meet someone new? Have you fulfilled our dreams yet? Are we still going to be a teacher? Have we gotten better? You're turning 19 today huh? Is it fun? Right now its 5:24 pm on may 24th 2020. I just turned 13 and I'm in love. Are we still friends with Frances, and Cadence, and Arissa and Bella? Have we gotten our first tattoo yet. Do you still write? Have we gotten better at writing and singing? Have we been in a play? Is it terrifying to grow up? Do we still think about our bio dad? Is mom doing okay? Say Hi to her for me! And Dad! I guess the kids too because when you read this they'll be 10 right? As i'm writing this their still four. And loud too. I'm scared I'm scared for mom I'm scared that the person I hope is the love of my life might leave me. How do I even know you're reading this? You might've died by now and whoever has this email is getting a horrible surprise. Do me a favor okay? Give yourself a hug. You made it through all of the ******** you had to deal with in your life and I'll be damned if ill let you throw away how incredible you are. Get your *** to the best school and show the world that your ready to rule it. I'm proud of you. It's okay if you still don't know who you are. Get your **** together and breath. You've lived this god**** long and you better appreciate it. Do you still paint? This letter is all over the **** place but its you so you know it would be. Did you ever take up knitting like you said you would? And I know I've mentioned her already in this letter but tell Aurora I said hi. I don't care if we're together or if we even spoken in months, just call her and say hi because no matter how you feel about her as your reading this, the you writing this is so in love with her. Take a moment and make something. Write someone a letter, bake something, just get up. Did you ever get over you're hatred of tea? I hope you did because I've heard some good stuff about it. It sucks that I don't know whats happening to you right now because I would write some questions better for you. Hey, do me another favor and stay alive. I love you

Epilogue

about 22 hours later

Y’know I was really nervous to open this letter. I know how bad we were back then and I was scared this would just send me spiraling back. I am...

Reacds. ’mi ifle tiknh fo ryeyeavd rof esacdr i lilw my eb a nad i iehlw. Eth we od term ahs rnsut glno rngsiperes fcteefs uto lla cyullaat. Yhhtael devil uyo with ludv’oew a ’im owh lwodr her uyo and aauor,r gt?hhuot ever eolv asw rwe’e in ont tuhtohg rysro weehr. Rylela do isltl ti ma to isaspon for vhae dan ngoig eb tehacer a i a i. Do i nettgo eyalrl yltur i ihtnk ’ewve e,trbet. Fudon htkin teh uhohtgt oyu ti evew’ yuo oyu eitm nw’tas i dha needed hawt tihs eovl tbu. Polepe insrfed ouy woh oyu eth oyu ivge aer vloe oyu wot udlow orf fro hatt eahv nda owdlr who. Nda but ,cenfars ts()ra kltade yufrnlqete danecec takl ltlsi ro asairs, ot het emit i lable i embremre oyu dn’ot tsal. Hmte ’notd veer l’ulyo i hitnk ovignl ostp. Noe ew ouy doulw lapyrobb pextec ddi lafynli totato, a not talouhgh gte. Doluw mpoe is’t a yuo i rmof eqout wchhi cretfnima oelv thogu,h den okwn hte. To i trewi idd vloe then rmeo eevr no ofcus yuo etrypo ew tlsil houlaght. Tuo it get efglsine bda het elhps. Yas ev’we oduwl dpirmeov siskll hstngi ltsli adn tobh rou i utabo ngsgnii teh’yre nsoapstaei dan iitwgrn hwit weer’. Den i i did own so devol armjo in atht a yp,la ti ruo pu sti’ hcmu nad. Ueoltt su henw kaem atreeth eht na ’tesdno ldrwo fro sveig nsees. Rcyas pu a si etltli ogniwrg. Giodn oyu hwta ont eend id’ rytpte to eeivleb ot ’wree od for ekli seeth’r snicntosritu ealylr yan lwle utb. And rwee’ ithw evre he add l’wle nikht yaw not be iters wno ihs i ocles nd’ot in ubt. Usjt ererbmme was erew dik tsi’ npa,i rea ot ti wlhei we atth eeolpp asere dan norb he a wehn tronampti n’edots eillbalf teh. Mso’m ngotet esorw. Ethahl asw eenvr ttah lwsaya i atnrgmehi ubt wkon rhe rtows uyro ivpmeor ddi. The acraionl adn roescsp raaz to eoj nhotr in norivgicd htwi imnvog fo ’sshe. Ttha nda erev ’im hurt syror yuo eth vleo ot to yoln oto who rewe atht rae o,yu srryo gnuoy oelepp you i’m enmta zaeielr. Skid zraa yonl atbou owkn htlhguoa era hte ,gdoo i. Hsa ormf hmoe goa few utnjsi ruo noe ttah moevd was dan vdoecerer mfor esyar a lreayl no. Otl she’s abyb a oru ognrw tub (aslo be hwit se’hs ltisl hs’rtee yes u)lod thsgin z gnoig ligr ot wyalsa fo. Ouy rewe i who konw rsedca. Kdra lla who abd item the tog nda ohw tvhinyerge sginht kown i eesdme. Olwud kaem tbu i seem thta i heva i ’im sya konw oepepl sllit gntshi ssel tfiygnerri eacdrs. Nto onos ’erwe oiggn to aitnemy ailev llsit heagcn tst’ha and. Enhgira ’mi tnikh lpehs i zireela eblcriedin uoy yas rome wuold yuo tnhe. Thta awy erhe tnkih urpdo lefi be upord em duowl ouy ni ot ubt ttah i a of eb dneeed uoy bemmreer fo, to vlei veen inbeg ym i rfo i awtn wulod. I ts’i geecoll, did “eht den ,hosol”c etrwsen yllrea ovle weilh best we up nto od ni nad. Ecauebs raleyl rou ew rgdsea we are nehw tis’ era auobt reac aianzmg stamr fsuft. Ot nkwo i say m’i hwo fi will utb d’i am ersu i keli i eerv nto. I wsa an do’tn hatt siapons, utb an ouy me edlov esamk hent hnkti n,tipa tilsl asecpe it omer i ti fo aucatl it hppya. Fo lecap feli oevr is be os too atth entire ti msake nssee royu all ryou rlealy wgtniir dwlou ayn eht. Uto os nda we fndou we hmcu teha it derti itnitkgn. St’i sa aioygnnn ellh. I ton tuo sith ehcra oiggn to htru ohw nokw rhe ot uwodl ot erah ti utb mi’ yuo mhcu. I ernsunadtd su tlsil to in and otni mi’ lefi hse tgniry ym kbac thur ot lte rfusee hre ayws. Hse mreradi saw ehr i n,elyetrc on eht eookfabc otg hpoost omms. Her ti she oury fo mi’ ouy dveesder nda mchu os evner yorrs ttha velo gaev. A ctalauyl dmae y,ad bake het stbe sefridn orf iarbhydt i ddi htroe i our ceak. Eanm ish iktnh i is ihm wudlo cj and yuo odera. Evner tge rvoe rfo freigrnild ew us het did ,tae uaotb tadhre uor cihwh shaet. We iknd orf t, a e(sr!rupsi kwee fo ffneedtri a vreey )yb!o ew ciinsjtneo hwchi do jeony od its’. Item i hsiw yuo ni go adn aklt ot i ckab coudl. Atht nhgtis adme i tge ghorthu ti dan ouy remipso etrteb. Ru’yeo rae rshheic avryyeed ot rheet nda evah so you cyklu ilfe hatt yrou emth eoplpe in. R’etna rtfpcee btu wree’ yppha ew. Lveduoc’ rhee r’yeuo tenh you gto i vere loev emor yuo i hwo sbaucee ieamdgni. Udw’otln fi be here i ouy pkee tddn’i gryitn. Oto ew iigngv i swa nddti’ pu os kown ttah utb idert mtpnigt,e i evne konw iomtsemse uyo. Adn tasedy ereh aceesbu ’mi yuo i evol uoy.

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