A letter from May 16th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It's 01:35 of the 16t of May 2020. You are not in the best headspace right now, breakup from 2 months ago, money issues, new school, maybe even new appartment. But you are doing way better tahn last year. So much better. Things are weird at the moment, you have been in quarantine for 2 months, you won't go to that school ever again. It's weird huh. Please don't loose contact with your firends. If you did, please send them a little something. Lalie, Sam, Andrea and maybe even your classmates. Keep in touch with the Girls as well, Alice, Julie, Romane etc. Look how far you've come. You have been admitted to your dream school ! You were in a relationship and that shit didn't happen in 5years. Remember all the good times you had with your friends, the joy you felt. Cherish those memories because you know how fragile they are. I hope you are not blaming yourself anymore. I hope regrets are gone, that you fogave yourself at some point in your life. It is hard right now. You're still living with it on your mind, the weight on your shoulders. I hope you had your so wanted surgery. You suffer so much from it, please get it as soon as you can if you didn't yet. Please do this to ease your psychological pain. You don't deserve to feel that way about your body. I believe in me. See how far you've come. Be proud.