A letter from April 12th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, It's April , I don't even now how to start. First thing that comes into my mind it's well my Girlfriend, motherfucker, you know like, the girl you really really loved and she just broke your heart? Yeah. That girl. I was stupid enough to trust her promise,, i will keep you forever and I will never let you go, cuz you are so special lalalalala" hahahaha stupid me for believing her lies. I shared all my secrets with her cuz I really thought she was the one. I didn't even realize I was just another game for her. I gave her all my love you know? I still don't understand how can people be so mean? I know you reading this now and you're thinking ,,damn stupid me, I let that girl play my heart like a guitar" Well I got played and it hits diff cuz I thought she was the love of my life . Poor me for letting people fool me like that. Well, play or get played , right? She had my first kiss. She had my trust, she had everything, yet she decided to play me . Yes I would love to text her now and just throw it All in her face cuz she fucking played me. I want to tell her exactly how i feel, I wanna tell her how she shattered me BUT GUESS WHAT? I WAS JUST ANOTHER FAILED RELATIONSHIP FOR HER so she left. I CAN'T BELIEVE I TRUSTED HER WHEN SHE TOLD ME: i love you so so so much bla bla bla bullshit Yeah well i even wrote a book for her but I don't think she cares enough, so i don't know if i should give it to her. She left me wondering for months, what happened right in front of my eyes? what happened RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES THAT I DIDN'T SEE?? she doesn't care. She couldn't even break up with me. She just left and that's it. She let me figure it on my own. I'm mad, I'm mad at myself for trusting people. I want to write her a message: FUCK YOU CUZ I LOVE YOU AND YOU LEFT ME WONDERING EVERYDAY IF IT EVEN WAS MY FAULT. I BLINDLY jumped into a love story with no ending . I will need time to heal cuz this girl promised me the world and lied straight up to my face,,,,,, how ? hm? HOW could i have been so stupid to really think she was any different? It' s fine tho. Life is not fair. I dreamed about her last night. I GOD DAMN LOVE HER AND IT' S BEEN ALREADY A MONTH SINCE SHE JUST DECIDED TO QUIT. I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE i REALLY THOUGHT I WAS SPECIAL FOR HER GUESS I FUCKING WASN'T. LIES AND BULLSHIT yeah, the truth is that people are mean. She warned me about that but she was my safe place, my home, my love..... I wanna give her some advice : Darling , I hope you treat your next one with more respect, I hope you will appreciate them , oh and don't lie to them cuz some good people out there will really love you, with all their heart, like I did. Well, I Hope you are doing better, you are focused on your life , you keep trying to improve yourself and last but not least: DON'T TRUST PEOPLE, JUST DON'T OK? DON'T OH AND HAPPY BIRTHSDAY! I KNOW u always cry on your B-DAy so just shut up and DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?ok love? remember you are loved and appreciated . remember that . One day she'll look back and she will regret letting you go, I promise you. but oh well , she doesn't deserve u . She couldn't let u go yet she couldn't treat u right either . So yeah fuck her and find someone who will appreciate your worth. U got this, cuz u are strong beautiful and smart. I LOVE YOU AND I WISH U A Happy B-DAy(cut the sweets, I know you eat too much love) ;)