A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

0,212 cna alerx yuo.
Tslainu̇b yera ce,lloeg uaaylctl sretanp ebescua to uro irmzi̇ rdsatet in i ovedm eht ew 'dnto eivl ,yaormen. .
Es'hre ot uyo dylıız oo,so ktenki ogt eth ni ,tignh. Gaeniim ot uwdol ouy veen ni the hgitsn haeppn aws ton it utb. . . . Ereth ausgengal sunygidt eyur'o ni. W?tha elernda nokw nda uoy fnrche ouy.
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Prom no t'dcouln the rodm dsa yoru ihst onigg ot a go uyro werti oeury' btu selmi efcran ni face form omro ihtw ouy to.
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Otctacn sa sa asnem eht nhtik you any avbeo ont in yro'eu tiwh of tnqefuer. Tlos veen uyo oen hetm of. Tihgr ahtt gdssuee ):.
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Dctoul'n ynrea eht to tgo me,riadr edgdniw ouy cfnrae in sbc og uoy weer.
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Esh l̇iacl lsoce to is i,nef a ash niu pealc. Eterh oitn het tbu mhet ehac dya semo uoy ames of hatt ouy eth you othres two rnfied lodwtu' iwht ogt eb eht best esugs of iun dlot'nuc.
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Geönkç is godo. Hes ndtere in a uheso mğaul. Steuids she thwi kuttu reeth. Dtdni' ro,rsy utb ihm mtee ety yuo. Sloce ubt yad meos.
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In baria eutdssi ṙmzii. See ubt evale you in tog erh fater imṙiz gnaai ucld'nto octcatn rye'uo uoy to.
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Lcyatlua lwli yad ees easdu yuo eon. Tsih bte tcfa blwo i a ebing dmni iwll oyru. Wkno ese i imcong 'ntddi sethe uoy.
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Dias ihtmg iunal̇stb rewe adn be hewn clod you yuo nokw tubao i gnlktai it. Csilyapcelfi but dasi any eeeivbl ecalp i nda m,ena htat titd'nd uoy us laed reeh. Arcnfe na rrnetnho durne raeewth oezr to iwht rengfiez eth. T?f??w? nad it's in eb bueecas cldo hcmu enicr cnrefa ni so to.
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Slsetgurg ahnpep. 5 eyht ni tsla ysaer eth eadhppne. Tub oot dah oeelpp naym oyu tihw dah,r rkoawnbesd rodwek reiftdl yamn yman. Wnet rhteei ot lost psaerti rcide oyu fo uoy dan utb otsl. Dbe dsa olas moevd made ot peeplo treoanh tmsie,msoe you fo otg oyu o'lutndc so ubt out noe uryo bset iwth fo sdrneif oyu ntcyrou. Veen wnok oyu hatw ginaa? uoy tey erh do'nt nkow nda. Ni nto mresad, oury thsi ihr?gt eevn ni is.
On'td oyuntcr owkn o'tdn i hoatnre buota titruos a besaeuc otrhw vene ti ouy khnit ouy as niogg ot. .
,is ti you thwro het ihngt. Ontd' uyo nih,tk lveo mreo yll'ou ryowr soeyufrl tanh nvee. .
-ards-elo8ley-f yuo dind'tt rouy klie tisaspoind iebveedl yuo. .
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Ti adeth uoy derit uic,ybllp geuss yuo ,ushsi i eyrv. Teh refta 'nddlmocsa posh yuo eascueb ot anre tath ssuhi etnw eth. .
U,oy snoo akme oesm tup i as elra as nwso eartf orf lnaeg hlesotc khitc l'li i a no cna. Seeabcu n'dto vnortyillua oc,nleog ti aslo the elmsl :>( ltsil whti eerh sell i eehr sncie i can em tbuorgh heyt it.
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Dna al,lsyt 19 aws dgoo. Made 8 ouy 91 ta wne isfdrne. Eno on hety ehelpd eesl ddi oot eikl uyo. Eocsl is e'oyur w,no 23 22. Lfei ewn abuot imankg f,nsdrei dna rlyuoefs ot itlsl lislt tyr 'roeyu elcuslse oevrpmi euoyr'. L'uylo ever very eht ese oue'yv tfle, umch ulleisbap utb gthin tas'ht osmt.

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