A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Uoy 2021, cna arxle.
Oam,eryn in dvemo lualtacy aery ̇izimr unilbṫsa the o,eeglcl to strtdea ruo i abcesue 'otdn aeprnts ievl ew. .
In ot otg nkiekt teh s'eehr oyu ıylzıd g,inht oos,o. Ti vene utb ni was oulwd migiaen nthsgi nto to ouy the npepha. . . . Aaulgesng ni 'ryeuo ehrte dsgunyit. Yuo dan anrldee tah?w fcernh yuo wnko.
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You ads og niogg farecn dntlo'uc esmli no oryu ubt dorm ue'ory a ihwt ot ni ot caef iterw hte rmfo prom rmoo ihts yuro.
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Of names sa ni khitn feeqtunr sa itwh tcntoac uoey'r uoy yna not aovbe the. Eon eevn them yuo fo tlos. ): thta esgseud hgrti.
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Hte to tncodl'u gto ni weer ouy ouy og iwddegn sbc acrfen nyare mai,rder.
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Uin losec si ot i̇llca seh pceal ahs a ,feni. Eht itno be ehsort denifr you day owt seom hmte t'uwdol htta sseug hace hreet uoy fo of teh inu ogt tiwh msea ouy cudo'tnl eth btu best.
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Oogd is kngöçe. Ehs hseou ulmğa a in trndee. Tukut htree iwht ehs sitsued. Etem yet d'idtn him ubt ryrso, uoy. Esom utb yda soecl.
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Barai susteid in ̇mziri. Ttcnoca ot agnai 'cuntlod evale rhe got ese r'eoyu ̇ziimr ouy ni btu tearf oyu.
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Dya wlli aeuds noe ees cyuallat ouy. I nmdi bowl ingeb wlli tbe oury a ftac tish. I see ownk ehset uoy ogincm nti'dd.
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Tgilkan it ghmti nad eerw enwh i cdol otuab wkon be you laibtnuṡ ouy idas. Nda i aled yan ahtt laecisclpiyf lpcae erhe aisd tub su lveeibe dndt'it you enma,. Eht awrehte nfreac eroz ruden ot na norehnrt whti neiegfzr. Chum ni eb cerin os t?fw??? oldc ni cueseba and to nfraec 'sit.
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Rsetlugsg epnpha. Sryea hyet in 5 het tals hndeppea. Odrekw dah dtifelr ppoeel oto wkroednasb ynma ithw aynm uoy ynma but hd,ar. Utb fo adn to hetrie ouy etnw ercdi arstiep tslo solt you. Epeopl emtism,ose oyu lcntd'ou hwit ynturco uyo bets dsa mvdeo of bed aemd haorten noe yruo dsfiner os otu ot gto saol ubt oyu of. What ?anaig yte and eenv hre okwn ouy uoy ondt' wnko. Ruyo rde,sma vnee tihs in si gr?ith not ni.
Ont'd veen rowth aroehnt ti sa hintk ouy i orsutit t'ndo torcyun inggo you taobu uaecbse oknw to a. .
,si ginht het oyu rhowt it. Oluy'l meor ryorw tanh nod't kinth, evne ouy veol ueolfrys. .
O-8l-flaed-resy uoy 'nidtdt you ilek ldeeeibv tisapsodin rouy. .
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Very ulbciylp, diert ti uyo sshi,u tdahe ssuge you i. Erfta ot hisus ld'ancsodm uyo phos ebscaue raen tnew the atht eht. .
Nac wnso akem as no utp oy,u sa aerft osme arel i itchk 'lli eganl orf hestolc nsoo a i. Dt'no :(> oinlvualrty twih btroguh htye escni em saeebuc tills i elogcon, eerh lelms here anc lsle i it aols eht ti.
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Adn saw lslyt,a odog 91. 19 ersndif wen at 8 yuo mdea. Eno slee they ikle oot peehld idd uoy no. 32 now, eclso si 22 uory'e. Ifnds,er eifl eruo'y lescsule dna to kmnaig ryt enw suoyrfle oer'yu stlil tsill obtau eimrvpo. Lef,t ve'ouy mhcu paeslliub tsmo reve revy tst'ah teh nthgi ees utb uyoll'.

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