A letter from March 24th, 2020

Peaceful right?

Dear Future Me, i hope you're in your dream college today and everything is not in quarantine. Also hope you're able to read randomly thousands of books, watching endlessly tv-series and hear your parents how much they can't wait you to come back home to İzmir for holidays. I just checked the part i wrote now and i realize how formal it is smh.(göz deviren emoji burası) Whatever, everything is not so perfect right now, i am hoping to study more hard the rest of my last 3 months to THE exam in quarantine, make better results on denemeler and going to win an excellent university ve allah rızası için şaşırtmak my teachers be. Valla geri kalan zamanım için 12. sınıfım çöp olmuşa benziyor, mezuniyetimi bile görmeden ve balo elbisemi giymek için zayıflamadan koronadan ölebilirim ya da en kötüsü zayıflayınca bunların hiçbirini yapamayabiliriz. ALLAM LÜTFEN 2020'de EXCELLENT ÜNİVERSİTE YARABBİ. Nys. -öhöm- For now that's all i can say and i really really hope you're feeling soo beautiful and actually are, comfortable with yourself cause you showed your real potential abilities actually to yourself and so happy (cause i need to be right now), that you forget your 19th birthday because YOU ARE SO **** HAPPY TO REMEMBER. I hope i laugh at the situation i am in right now in your day, show this e-letter to my new friends or recent ones to make them laugh and be even more happy. Also, maybe you're in contact with Beyza, Rabia, İclal, Yaren and Gökçen. Maybe you're not. Maybe you met Asude again. Maybe you lost one of them. It doesn't matter, try contact and thank the rest please. Even if they don't know it well, they made your life better in so many ways you know. If you don't, know it. Because your life wasn't so easy (maybe because of your thoughts or the situations you're in) and won't be easy at 18 if you're alone. Make 19 better for yourself. Eat sushi, secretly hate it. Drink as much as you can. PLS CHANGE UR STYLE. Learn a new language. Improve yourself. Try everything you want. Don't dissapoint your 8-year-old-self like i did. Please love yourself. Don't push to crush even if things go wrong. Kendine de iyi bak, soğuktur oralar. PUT SOME CLOTHES ON LİKE YOU SAY. Burası pek soğuk olmaz, alışmışsındır. But make a snow angel for me and the 6 years you couldn't. Smell this message, i am sooo sure it'll be smell like cologne from my quarantine days. HAPPY BİRTHDAY. SANA LOTS OF DEZENFEKTAN YOLLUYORUM, METRO TUTAMAÇLARINI TUTTUKTAN SONRA KULLANIRSIN. Değerimi bil. byü.

Epilogue

almost 4 years later

Dear past me,

Somehow, in 2021, I didn't reply to this letter. I think it was waiting for me to answer it today.
The horrendous days of quarantine ended in...

Yuo axrle 2,120 anc.
N'otd ew the drtstae i eaecubs er,yonam ni viel ȧutbnisl claaulty ryea i̇rmzi ot dmeov tapsner ecoegll, uor. .
Otg ot dzlıyı ,osoo gt,hni you er'ehs the inkekt in. Ti vene uwdlo ton in ot but apphen gianmie you the thnsgi asw. . . . Y'euro ni eagalnsug erhte igynsutd. Dan lreedna w?tah yuo efhrnc wkno oyu.
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A mroo tbu ryou sad iwht rcenfa no go ureoy' oggni ot ot eislm wietr mdro feca in uoy the htsi uoldtcn' uyor rmfo mopr.
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Nktih sa as yan ni asemn qnfteure obeav htiw of u'oeyr ont uyo tnotacc the. Lsot fo oen vene uyo emht. ): hatt sesedgu igrth.
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,ardrmie diwedng ot hte enfrac l'utodnc ewer in tog uoy go you earyn cbs.
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Is ot a lcsoe li̇acl nui i,enf hsa esh lecap. Het tehm wto teh tino egssu eht niu you hreet soem tub oyu ady htat uyo fo eb ogt ceha amse wulot'd rsheot u'lotcdn twhi of esbt diernf.
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Good is neçökg. Rdeent esouh uğmla a seh in. Edsistu hes whit ukttu eehtr. Tub ind'td meet ,rsyro ihm yte uoy. Tub yda lsoce smoe.
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In iarab sudtsei iṙizm. Tefra yuo uyo oyu'er tbu in tgo aeevl reh nulctd'o aocttcn naiga iṙimz ese ot.
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See uyo yda eon lliw lycltaau uasde. Nbeig acft illw mind blwo bte siht i a royu. Dintd' ouy ehset ese wkon nigcom i.
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Katginl reew obtua ̇utlbnias uoy olcd nda aids i migth ti wenh know be uyo. Sadi enma, tindd't and us htta ebvilee uoy heer nya eald epalc btu i lyeiciplfcsa. Roez teh enhrontr enudr wtih feerinzg taeehwr an to ncafre. Mhcu nicer be 'sit cdol in aubcsee to and earncf ??tf??w ni so.
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Eggsustrl hanpep. Anpdehep 5 stal ni eht thye eyrsa. Too hwit adh tbu yuo aymn yamn peolpe rodwek rielfdt many dbasewnkro ,ahdr. To tub rtihee and oslt lsto fo eicrd etwn you esaprit you. Bde royu to also urtcnoy tog os utb ouy out fo epoepl ovdem fo ouy nefidsr s,otmsmeie sebt noe hteoarn sad amde you tldouc'n iwth. Dtno' nad oyu enev yte reh aing?a awht onwk ouy nwok. Hsit igh?rt in even ni eam,rds is oyur ton.
Nt'do sa cebaues tuoba hetnoar ot it ctnoruy kwon i uoy a ouy 'todn eenv gnogi ritstuo trowh nhkti. .
Teh ti is, wrhot ightn you. Ermo loyu'l dnot' eevn ntah uoy rrwyo ovle oruefysl ,ntkhi. .
Uyo uroy intdt'd klie iebeedvl oyu lar-efde-sly8o- niipsodtsa. .
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Ti bpuc,ylil you i haedt suih,s vrey teird ugsse you. Hspo aren eth ttha 'dmdsclano enwt ecaubes the ot taref shisu uoy. .
Negla sa i oy,u sa can oems make wosn i eral tlsohec tup rtfae on noso kithc a 'lil rof. Ngeoocl, liotalvuyrn i tilsl thiw (>: lsao gotrhbu hte me cna erhe reeh tyeh it ncsie emlsl ebesuac i 'dotn it elsl.
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Gdoo adn ,tllasy swa 19. Dema 8 91 ta disefnr you wne. Did neo ouy sele ielk hyte too on hldpee. 23 eryo'u 22 n,wo is sleoc. Taoub ulresfyo ot enw dan 'yeoru esllusec ovreimp stlil n,dsefri y'uore amgikn tslil tyr lfei. Tah'ts liblpseua ylu'lo eyrv rvee l,etf u'yoev nghti het hcmu tbu ees smot.

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