A letter from November 22nd, 2019

Dear FutureMe, Hey. It is November 21st, two days away from Thanksgiving break. I just wanted to say, I hope you're doing better. You wanted to **** yourself last weekend but the man you're in love with talked you out of it. You've gone through so much this year. Man...and we thought 2019 was gonna be the good year. Your sister ended up in a mental hospital but your mother blamed you. I hope you're no longer beating yourself up for that. also, you lost Katie... she really took a toll on you and it hurts. even though the man you love talked you out of it, you still wish to die...I hope these feelings have ended by now. hell...the man you love doesn't love you and it is painfully obvious. I mean, he has made it obvious in the past, but now it something I see without him trying to make me see it and it hurts like ******* hell. who knows...is he still around? this letter is a mess haha. I just hope you're okay. I hope you've grown to love yourself and know that ***** isn't the answer. right now it really feels like it is. I Hope you made it far enough to receive this letter. I hope it wasn't hard.