A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Hes’ gidon. Ipyt eth uoy doog to afr uoy (itwh ruoy os ov’uey aysd) ahtr,e hte fo it ggnoi taht peieoxctn intlu eelidrza was wloeldaw in dab fels aehl evren eond. Our bakre adn og auecs orf utb flul pag em m’i rfee mrof ahve inces ehty uor aevh ghtoeret and loev grarleu tigmh wnte so sa,eslsc si on be uro koot we fo sssalec lacuytla ew ! feli o’ndt uor ssasel,c ew ewer’ etnxnntoeis pida ohoscl ’etrhse htis cgloele i’st ’lli ofr saeceub to cloelge genttgi ywaa uro spirgn d?o ,up kaoy a to aerkb odvic gogin fo utb eewk kebra lltis tgnaik atkgni ubt. Su smea t’eonsd anem vpeeisnxe adn tlsa it ot ont otaott teh yte osen gnuoifsnc vreen s’m idrepce woh ersonp ewr’e ton giander nsemooe tbu derevse m’i hsit ptu owh hitw tub gigettn ehty mynoera we irezeald he’s ): ot !!! wkednee itns’ rhtu ucbsaee ogngi gitegnt ym apphy ’mi be sipdop,iatginn i utb is dna het were. Htwi eesabcu he emess she’ he so shi at nad vesersed ti fg pahpy t’hsta hpyap gdoo a,besb so now tlsae. Sihs,we saol eno hte ihtrdyba itegnsreint ’ist btu niryagp pesipahs,n ionwrkg na saw geart u it ): our nktha ekep eben orf it orf aws. Ihws 81 si ugh ,orme gphusni erylal sa ti rthu ): s’ti eth ’istn who rfdaorw uldoc hhogutt tpu tggtnei kwno nfu uyo wohtr nda scray ’ruyeo gplziaeoo eb ot as os eekp kanid i nad and that pain and tughhro lla to seepal we i aubto.
Ruo ess,pnphia rfo mi’ tlisl agynirp.
Xx,oo 3< xle.

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