A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Doign ’hse. ’oyeuv dlwewloa yuo inggo eerzadil tneocixpe rfa s)ady eht ni hwi(t ti iytp ttha ot adb of you etrha, lahe noed so nreev good wsa oruy ltuni teh efsl. Goeclle kbrea oru ewke to os ognig rewe’ break i’ll btu elvo me eretohtg ot eacsu be rearugl ruo eetrhs’ ! eogecll its’ ew wten ,pu eefr ielf mrfo aekrb dna fllu fro cnise no uro llcautya tbu ihst of mgthi ss,csale go a mi’ tyeh utb rou gnispr inxtteosnne rfo o?d no’td lltsi oru sls,sace gitkna ebeucas nda fo gpa we salcses waya hooslc adip ayok hvae evah cdivo is ew angkti giegttn koot. Msae i eoeosnm thru ti eservde nda put evnre us dlezaeir btu astl erw’e we ethy iiitp,nonadgsp otn ): oggin and etosd’n rpesno be tye otn to dpeerci tiggnte ot tshi nist’ teh wthi ubt hte !!! attoto reew ’mi nevpxiese seon aphpy sm’ tgigent owh ym mi’ eadirgn eekwedn omnreya tbu hwo s’eh is enma nocufgisn ebeacus. Iwth ayhpp adn eessm it t’atsh he ihs sbaueec nwo ,sbaeb pphay at so vseeesdr gdoo os fg seh’ steal eh. Asw u epke aergt eno rof het ti shpsaei,pn an it kowngri ngpiyar eneb ): thdbiayr orf s’ti our slao hankt but wsa tngrseteini s,wishe. Lla to tsi’ sa 81 adn nda asrcy ti’ns hhgttou ): whtro owh si the culdo ,moer put hrtu to and outab fnu eb eepk sa i nggtite ouy apni we it ahtt yeour’ dan i ruhgtho pieoalogz psghuin so uhg lepaes sihw yerlal wonk rwofrda niadk.
Rof ehsspin,ap i’m iltsl niagypr our.
Xo,xo 3< exl.

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