A letter from August 11th, 2019

Peaceful right?

hey lex, it’s weird that I’ve already written 4 other letters but I feel the need to write more. This summer has been a roller coaster of emotions, we experienced some good, some bad, and some ugly. I’m trying to keep a positive attitude but it’s just been so hard lately, i spent my summer chasing after mark, i tried to hard to make us happen but he didn’t want me. He says he still likes me but he always makes mistakes and he doesn’t wanna put me through that or something ?? I haven’t texted him in almost a week but I called him yesterday to see if he could help me and isabel get our car unstuck but he said he couldn’t help and then hung up before I could say thanks anyway. I’m really hurt and I wish I didn’t feel this way. I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do anymore, do I just wallow in self pity until my heart heals itself somehow ? I’m so lost and confused and I can only hope that we have our **** together by the time you get this letter. Oh also happy birthday ! make sure you get that tattoo over spring break unless you’ve decided not to then that’s fine! I hope that when I read this letter again I’ll be happier and that reading marks name won’t hurt. I’m praying for our happiness and I hope it finds us :) until we meet again, xoxo lex

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Hi lex :)

I remember that summer oh so clearly and i want to apologize for putting you through all of that hurt over a boy who doesn’t know what...

Ehs’ gdoin. S)ady so yuo (iwth node fo hael ti you atth wsa ouyr in dab ltnui vo’yue ,eatrh lizareed arf gnoig eth ewlwdola revne dogo iytp to elsf niecetopx eth. T’srhee cleloge and no gpa ew uor yulclaat im’ lsacsse ahev ucaebes btu lluf is ofr pdia eref ltlsi go lohsco kwee tkaing celgeol yawa up, rew’e ot d?o enggtti uor easl,css to nagkti newt brake btu otko aelurgr be nnienxsotet omfr a ethy beakr elvo npgsri ruo niogg isnce ehva mhitg ew shti d’otn os fro krbae okay of dciov regttohe ew our of but secau flei tsi’ dan our me ! ill’ c,esssla. Iwth tub owh gnnao,dptsiipi si stal ebuaesc yppha enam ms’ :) tbu rnyeaom msea osen tup senmoeo dangier ggoin nis’t and su sognuincf ot i ont etyh ietngtg tdsone’ ym how edrecpi edenkew ’seh mi’ reew ’wree gntietg enerv it hutr nsievxpee to ttoato !!! ont tbu the eb siht eeverds hte adn we ’im onserp yte eizelrda. Eh at ihs it ’esh apphy happy atsle htsa’t rvsesede oodg as,beb eh os beceasu semse hiwt wno adn fg so. Saw soal sieswh, rbdhytai fro aregt sti’ epke gripnay ): wsa na u it eiresgtntni our oen hntka been rfo ubt eht it ae,pspsnih rinkwog. How dniak to em,or toaub ugh nwok i’ts tath 18 hte yelral adn i aycrs adn si uinghsp i peek afdrorw and lal gthtuho ohtrghu be elspea nfu we hisw os ti as sa nipa utp nda uoy ooazpgeil ggitnte rhtu cludo e’yuor rhwot to :) ’sint.
Ofr llsit our gyrniap ’mi pen,psihsa.
<3 exl x,oox.

This user has written an update to this letter.To see what they wrote, please

Write new comment

Load more comments