A letter from August 2nd, 2019

Dear FutureMe, hello angel I'm currently typing and listening to mellow songs while, of course, mini crying for the first paragraph of this letter, and for some parts of the letter you write it crying and I know who you're thinking of right now... beau! (I'm taking a risk, I'm sending this 5 years into the future to tell you, that, no matter what-you've found a best friend and you MUST make every possible attempt to keep him... he's your bestfriend) There's no words to describe how I feel right now I dont know how to address this feeling, but if there's one word that would describe us, its.... nope there's no one word last night he caught you off guard, NEVER SAW IT COMING just like he said and boy did it hit like a ******* punch angel, in the very first time, you already knew you were inlove-- but for him to actually say it verbally? I already knew in the first place that we loved each other, even if you did not express the words, but holy ****... this... is... ONE, heck of a guy now with what he told me angel? I know you remember! maybe... 5 years from now... I know you will "is it too soon to say that I think I'm falling for you?" he said and bam! your softy *** just bursted into tears, its all so precious that it melted your soul, your entire body melting against his, your face cuddly buried on his warm neck, all the memories of his warm embrace, his presence, HIM! fueling the fire that is your tears, heaving, panting, your chest an overflowing bucket of tears needing to be unloaded "what time is it?" "8:54" did not felt like it, did it? he's sunshine, warm and welcoming as his lips parted and left yours, he leaned back, he said something along the lines of "I have another question, can I just say something?" "I love you angel" your heart suddenly became jiggly jello, melting, crushed in pieces, stepped on... all of a sudden it all made sense when you said these words to the elderly alzheimer's patient, outside on a patio with just the two of you who can hear each other, you said "hey john, you know what, I think I'm inlove" well honey, turns out you aint the first one who said they loved someone who they loved-- HAHA! when his eyes just brush over yours with appreciation, his blue eyes locking with your brown ones, the ends of his mouth curving into a smirk that tickles your inner, candle lit, melting heart and when you held him in your arms, in the break of dawn, the light shining faintly across the 2 box of windows, he breaths, his heart pumping, his warm touch against yours, arms intertwined, bodies close to each other and you look longingly into him, your eyes wandering the comfortable sight, the curves of his lips, the subtle smirk on his mouth, his eyes dart open, the pupils enveloping a deep black circle, the blue marble that encapsulates his world, "I wonder how her mom reacted when she saw him breath his first breath, the first cry, his first look into the colorful world that is earth" and this I know, I'm glad I met him