A letter from July 14th, 2019

Hi Zaffer babyyyy how you doin' It's 2019 14th of July Maria writing a cringy letter here smh Long story short our trip to Turkey ended just a day ago so I wanted to write a lil about that and everything else ig. When we first talked on Chatous I could pretty quickly tell that we're compatible and similar in many ways. Like favourite number, game, even general story of life like how we both grew up in technically foreign countries where we're the outcasts. Our music taste was similar, anime that we like, movies, shows, etc etc etc a **** ton of **** basically and I guess that helped us grow close fast. You quickly became an important person to me that I care for a lot. It started off easy and simple, complaining about girl/guy friends, crushes, ex's and then we started talking more about ourselves, opening up to each other. I remember the first time it was on rabbit when we were watching a movie lol, I'll tell you about it in a year if you don't remember. Tbh I really didn't expect it to become anything more than that but I'm glad it did. You became a huge part of my life and at this point, you're almost like a family to me. But I guess being a family also means going through a lot of trouble, like fights. We had quite a few major arguments ngl, lots of them were really emotional for me and it was hard, I'm sure it was the same for you too. Multiple times we broke up and multiple times I thought we were officially over for good, but each time we made up and got back together. I think it's especially difficult because it's online. We only have words to comfort each other yknow? Can't hug you to help you feel better. Well anyway regarding the arguments I just wanted to say that we'll forever be learning about each other and about general communication so if we're in a salty period right this second as you're reading this, then know that I don't think there's much that can't be solved through talking. Now a lil about Turkeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy The best frickin vacation of my life omfg. Honestly I was expecting us to hate each other and be all awkward, getting annoyed every time one of us talks. But you know how it turned out? Amazingshegsuoiehsie jfc I never thought I'd be so into somebody god ****. My first impression of you was kinda strange, I was really weirded out by seeing you right in front of me. Some things you just don't consider when you imagine meeting somebody. For example the smell, the details of skin and hair and clothes lol, OH AND YOUR VOICE OMG that was so weird, it sounded different at first and so hq. In general I didn't know how to feel about you or anything at first, I was just really freaked out. After lobby when we went out onto the banana fields and **** I started feeling a lot more comfortable with you, like starting to remember who tf you are lol and afterward it just got better and better. By the end of the trip I realized I've never connected with somebody like I connected with you tbh. I get friends and family members etc, but being actually romantically attracted to somebody and feeling the way I did with you was something I don't think I've experienced before. Also a lot of doubts and questions cleared up for me. I wasn't ready to commit to somebody that I've never met before but now I can safely say I'm going far with this relationship. And nowwww I wanna say some things about you ;))) No matter how many times you deny it you're a frickin hottie and I gotta be constantly on the lookout for somebody who's coming to steal you smhh. Before you could use an excuse oH bUt YoUvE dOnT kNoW hOw I aM iN rEaL lIfE Yeah well now I do know how you look in real life and god **** I'd bang. Your personality is the best part though. I don't know how to describe it but basically you're very much you and I love that. THat was such a **** description but idfk what to say man, I guess it's the individuality. You're Zaffer complaining about people all the time, playing either minecraft, brawhalla, or dota. Other than that I feel like you're really open-minded with things. I never feel like I can't tell you something. Your commitment, wholeheartedness, and honesty too. You're so wholesome too omg aaaaaa I'm just so obsessed with you wtf I've said it multiple times already but you mean the world to me. It's strange that even after almost 2 years of talking to you I still get excited when you message or call me. Anyway you helped me get through some tough times like moving to France and monthly period depression lol. You make me really happy and the thought of being with you and being able to grow old with you really excites me. The online aspect of our relationship is tough but we'll get through it. If we still haven't met up the second time by the time you got this, cheer up mate, you just gotta be more patient and good things will come to you, like me ;) I love you Zafferrrrrrrrrrrrr