A letter from February 19th, 2019

Dear older me, Today it's 19th of Feb, noontime I was scrolling through Instagram and I found this website and I thaught it would be fun if I send a letter to you using this. Ofcource you'd see this as nonsense as your technology has been a lot more advanced than mine. So are there time machines discovered through which you can go back in time ... In case you forgot when you were 15, it was your dream to travel back in time to the Goryean era and visit all the kindoms of Silla, Baekhja and Goryeo.you wanted to check weather king Jinheung was really that handsome after visiting Silla you were also curious to know if king Gwangjong really had Any scar on his face. Or did you met any alien like our DO MIN JOON and do you own any writing pad through which you can create and enter a complete different world and meet someone as handsome as KANG CHUL. Did you find out if Hogwarts was real. If I'm not wrong then its your 21st Birthday. I hope you are doing fine. Mom and dad may be proud of you now and ahana may also be loving you. So what I want to tell you is that I am stupid and I'll continue being fooling making idiotic desicions. But you should know that whatever I'm doing now is what I feel right. I definetly don't have any intentions to make you feel sad or guilty. Whatever path I take may seem fine to me at the moment and maybe it will take too long for me to realize that I was wrong and my mistakes may also be never deserving forgiveness but you need to understand that I always wanted the best for the people i loved my mum, dad and ahan. There may be times when even you will hate yourself, at those times you need to understand that its not because of you. All you always want is a better life for you and all those you love. When I say life... Living is indeed hard you know what even harder is??? its surviving. It will become really hard for you to survive in such a harsh world... But you should understand that others are also trying to survive, in that process they have to face their back towards you so don't hate those people who descieved you at times, cheated on you or.... Because everybody wants to live and it's not a fault for wanting to live and you know that its hard to live. even though you cannot remember but there may have been several times that you have been a nightmare or a villan in someone else's story. No matter how good you want to be but you can't always be nice to everyone. Even without knowing you are being someone's enemy. But you need to forget and forgive at times like this. You are a human so you don't have to be perfect. Do what you feel is good. Do those things that make you happy. Maybe whatever you do will make you regret later but thats life. your life is not going to be full of happiness There may be some sorrows in your life too but honey if you don't know the taste of sorrow you'll never realize the worth of happines. so live your life without worying about your future because you don't know what's gonna happen at the next moment of your life even you happen to know that your gonna die tomorrow but then also you should live your today to the fullest Cuz they say that "past is a history, future is a mystery but today is a gift, and that's why we call it PRESENT" It's not that you will live only once cuz you live everyday and Every day is a new beginning but you'll die only once so make every day count. And happy birthday Yours loving 5 yr younger self