A letter from June 27th, 2018

Peaceful right?

Dear John, Today, I felt that I conceded a year of our life. I failed to pass the year for us. It is currently the "Exam du Rattrapage" week, but here I am writing this letter to you, instead of preparing for the exams that could give me a second chance. I tried, I tried and I tried. I think it was just so hard for me, given that I haven't mastered the French Language. As well us, that I haven't well adjusted to the life of living here. Sorry, I tried but my body is failing me, my soul is not feeling it. I lost all of the things that made me valuable and those that prove my existence. I lost my motivations in life and I felt alone. The young version of us dreamt so high. A very intelligent, imaginative and creative kid he is, but a fool to dream at the great heights. It would be easier for us if he'd known the reality of life earlier. I hope you remember cause I miss those late afternoon rain where we were looking blind to the pale greyish blue sky. Where cold rain droplets flow through my cheeks and my skin, our skin. I hope you still enjoy those. You know my story but I will never know yours. I'm sorry if I did something wrong in the future before you, and I hope that you've forgiven me that I put you in that situation that you're living today. I hope it wasn't that horrible, I hope you have way better than what I have today. I wrote this letter to remind you of me and to say that I am sorry that I failed. I hope that you were able to read this or I just hope that you're still alive because I'm afraid that in between us I made a terrible mistake that forsaken your existences. If ever you read this, I know that you're far way stronger than I am. I've been through a lot but today you've been through a lot more than I am. Be strong, be stronger and be strongest John that I never dream of. Sincerely yours, John 2018

Epilogue

about 2 months later

Dear John 2018,

I already received 3 letters that you have we have sent in the past. Reading these letters reminds me of the memories, emotions, and pains incrusted with...

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We hte clyunrtre fo ysa btu ash hte ebst oen noe ned r,usmme ta era ew fo anc dha bene i thsi. Got fo sterpai cnhub a owt msu,erm ectoiysdurn tieaprs dan to as dvitien ellw isth ew ertoh. Ew eb tnyeercl mfor fmro 7 acem ot o,hsnte edifetrfn ayd utjs atocsnilo mohe nsuicnuoto a grytniap. Sha 'ontw dn,e iths hwsi enevghtiry i atht btu noe. .
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Rfeboe aeyr as utssdent left ew usrmme ew haev edns 2 listl orf fro a ltfe rfbeeo nad hengacxe iumgebl na wekes. Its' anel,o enalo eb ewn gominv sta,rt aerohtn 'mi tnio lyelra nuonwkn a naogn. Tub feli a ywa sha rusipsre ,ehy us to. Hte be hwo ,rea to nda oevrisn ew of rnela ertag esbt uyo rfo su a ihst laos awy is. Kohcs af, eb lsihyst mhte adn ift ew kab,c hnew are ngoan we we tnrure naogn. .
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Btsudo yawa eb is agihnv ote,hns ot ti cltnryee ot iade m'i og aaign but fi a rtega. Aedm veo,dl enitmeg me lepo,ep dan pyaph eelf hatt dema ehste thta frtea em. Me eflineg in hesct illw thta yhaev engtill sism i this my 'steher mthe. Dlaehto dan smut utb doeerpc rea ot i veale, actontcrs i snge,di. Ohep od hte we and hatt is ew lla ,alsst can ipisdfhern emnira atht acsottnc. Iuenonct cabk og we i in can a aekm het lslti omrmsiee ehwn aagin uwdfenolr ry,ae higopn p,tsriae. .
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Oj,hn ouy lifeda so raed tn'eahv. We dya dscue!ced rgnwo by oyu vaeh day sntorrge. .
Elif nda enqourc lr,feosuy in u'lyol tsrtu i'm usre. .
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,yrsou ayplpih.
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2201 njho.

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