Dear Future me.

Dear Future Me, Ahah, that sounds like I'm Karkat writing a memo to himself. Is that still relevant? Jeez, what am I supposed to write in this? Maybe I should tell you a bit about myself? Uh, hey, I'm Tori, but I like Tazz better. I also go by Myst to a few people, but not many. I have...four blogs right now? OC blog, unfinished Sollux blog, Nepeta blog, personal, January. Oh, maybe that's five. I'm tired, shut up. Uh, anyway, I really like musicals, but I'm not planning on getting involved in any musical fandoms anymore. I've learned my lesson. Right now I'm compiling a playlist of all the songs I like so that I can put them all on my personal. I've just been prescribed a low dose of antidepressants that I have to take every day, they're the kind that take a long time to take effect. Six weeks, a month. I don't know if they make antidepressants with instant effect, but I don't think I would want to take them. For one, I'm planning on staying on these shits, and for two, the side effects are bad enough that I'd rather wait. Well, I hope I can make it that long anyway. To be honest I don't think I'm gonna live past 25, but hopefully that's enough time to spend with Kat? Speaking of Kat, did you meet her irl yet? Did you do all the things I want to but am too nervous to probably actually do? Hahah, you better have. Give her a kiss for me <3. Tell her I love her. I hope you two met up over the summer. I hope you went to the beach and watched movies and looked at the stars and cuddled and drew and maybe slept together. Not in a sexual way, literally take a nap. Did you grow your hair out? I've been meaning to do that but I dunno if I'm gonna. I like the pixie cut, but rainbow roots or just general rainbow hair would be cool too. Did you fix your sleep scheduled? Fuck I'm tired, you better have. Speaking of tired, how're the antidepressants working for you? Did the dosage change after the first month? Do you like your doctor? What about the psychiatrist? I hope you're happy, you deserve to be. You're amazingly smart, witty, and beautiful. Even though you get angry easily, you're kind. Remember that, Tori. Even if you may hate me, and I know you do, your past self will always be here to support you. Anyway, I hope you made that comic you were supposed to make for doc. I don't know what I'm gonna write about but I only have a few days. Gotta think of something. Who am I kidding, I'm probably gonna procrastinate. Anyway, that's enough. You should be settled into grade ten by now, if you're not dead, and hopefully you got all the classes you wanted. You're gonna make a great lawyer one day, or maybe you'll become a psychologist to help people like yourself. Either way, I'm proud of you, Tori. Thanks for hanging on long enough to read this.