READ THIS YOU IDIOT THIS IS FOR YOU BOHDAN I AM BOHDAN

Hey dude. So it's me, you. from 3/31/2017. so I hope you remember Dani or Dani_the_adventurer. I today was the day you cut her off. and Im writing this because I am really depressed. I have been ever since the first time she couldnt go out. it's been getting worse and worse. and Im not 5th grade depressed i feel like im actually depressed. I am finding it hard to find any happiness in alot of things and when I do its very breif before I rememeber all the shit that I have to deal with. Im not just depressed because of dani im also depressed because of school and how theres so much work to do and so much shitI have to deal with and how I really fucking hate school. Im currently writing this at the speed of light idk why but I feel like writing fast and I like how the clicking on the keyboard feels. so back to depression. I feel depressed because I dont understnad what happend. me and Dani hit it off so nice and I hate her for making me like her I honestly wish she just unmached me and got out of my life, but no she flirted with me and made get feelings for her and then she rejected me over and over and over and over and over and i guess I just had enough at this point and decided to cut her off. I just hate how nothing is working out for me in the relationship way. Im 18 I got to the gym Im relativley attractive WHY AM I NOT even close to getting a girl friend I really dont know and I hold on to this one idea that when im 21 and will be able to go to clubs that Ill find the one for me but what if even if that day comes I wont even have friends to go to clubs with. Timmy is in buffalo and antonio is preoccupied with his other friends so I am left alone to sit at home or go to the gym. I hate it. I feel like Im wasting my time. I need something to get my mind off of life because right now I do not like life. I really just wish I had someone to share these problems with. someone...why dont things work out for me. Kelly, Kari, Alex, Allyssa, Dani. Any time I get really close to a girl I get rejected. I dont know what to do anymore and I feel like total shit. everyday since like march 10th or something like that I have been feeling so shitty. I remember the first couple of hours talking to Dani. I didnt expect nothing i didnt have any feelings for her and then the next day she asked me to go out and I was confused but really fucking happy that I was so close to actually going on a date with a really pretty girl. and there was nothing stopping us there was no reason for her to cancell because SHE WAS THE ONE WHO ASKED ME OUT! SHE DID NOT ME Every other time it has been me asking and girls rejecting but now it's her. she did it and from that time I got feelings for here that I guess I coudlnt let go of until today. and truthfully I still havent let go. Im still depressed. more than ever really. and I dont know if anything can fix it. How long will I be depressed like this. how long do I have to deal with this. Until I forget??? or what I have no idea. I have nothing to distract myself from my problems. I need someone to distract me. so let's talk about you. 21 years old. right? I remember I sent another future email that you maybe have read saying " if you dont have a girl firned yet you are a faggot or something" but now honestly I dont expect you to have a girlfriend. Maybe the curse kept on growing for the next three years. maybe you broke it. either way I hope you arent feeling like you are feeling right now. because this feels bad. and all I can do is tell it to you. no one else would listen, no one else would understand. because everyone has their own problems. but you. you are me and we share problems so you know how it feels. So I guess... that's it. Im sitting here looking at my keyboard. thinknig, what the fuck is my life. what do I do. ... still sitting thinking about what I did wrong. or what I am doing wrong. and honestly I just wanna cry, but what's that gonna solve. nothing. nothing. at all.Anyway. really hope you found someone. and I really hope she likes you as much as you like her. because seems like that's hard to find these days. and Im slowly getting to the conclusion that maybe, girls are snakes. maybe makeup isnt the only thing they put on in the morning................bye I want to send a picture but it doesnt let me.so Ill just write this dialogue. it's the last thing I screen shot before I cut dani off. and I really like it because it has alot of feeling behind it. _____________________________________ Dani:Dude I LOVE snow Me:I'll get you some for your birthday :) Dani:It's in December Dani:I may fall asleep with you, just saying. Me:Damn im that boring? Dani:No! I'm super sleepy, Long day. You gotta keep me awake Me:Dont worry, I got you. I have a really cool place we could go. Me:And it's even better at night. __________________________________________