I hope you're living a life you're proud of

Dear Future Me, Where to start! First off, let me catch you up on what things were like at this time in your life. You just became a Comm major!! You're incredibly excited and you hope to God that things work out with it - but then again if it doesn't, I have confidence you will be able to work things out. You have before! I am so hopeful of the future. You're at the tail end of getting over Kevin. Remember him? He had more issues than Vogue, and didn't want anyone to see inside his pages. He had problems that had nothing to do with you. Plus, you deserve better. Taylor and Brian said so from the moment they met him, anyway. :) Plus in relation to this, at Mass this past weekend I think I had the most profound encounter with God I have ever had. It was Palm Sunday, and we were talking about love in the homily. So I was sitting there, and I heard a voice in the back of my head that said, "Why am I looking for humanly love when I have the most perfect love I could ever desire raining down on me?" I know it was God telling me to love and trust Him more than any material thing or human being, including men. And I am getting goose bumps and tears in my eyes as I am writing this - a sure sign that He is always with me. I hope I never forget that moment. I have had a lot of "grace moments" lately actually. For instance, I took Lizzie Barecca's Adoration hour this past Thursday (how is she, by the way?), and during that time I was praying (of course) but then I started reading through one of the books on the table beside one of the couches. I randomly flipped to a page and right in the middle, away from all the other paragraphs there was a phrase that said: "Transitions are not comfortable." Needless to say, this hit me like a ton of bricks because I have been transitioning so much this year, and my guess is that I still will be when you're reading this. But I hope I handle the uncomforable-ness better in the future. This year was a little rough when it came to that, and thank goodness to Taylor for sticking with me through it. You owe her so much. On to other things! How was Costa Rica? I sincerely hope it was everything I imagined it would be and more. I am so scared to go but so excited that I can hardly stand it. I hope it challenged you in ways you never imagined, and made you grow as a person. A good dose of fear never hurt anyone when they are chasing a dream. GO LIVE LIFE!!! Pura vida. "If you're scared then you're taking a chance. And if you aren't taking a chance, then what the hell are you doing?" - Ted Mosby How's Jack? Still amazing and cute as ever? Yeah, that's what I thought. Becoming an aunt is one of the best things that has ever happened to you. Remember that. This year I have come to the conclusion that I am a work in progress, and I think I always will be. However I think that is the way life should be lived. If you aren't working through something, then your life has to be comfortable and lived in the background of other things and I don't want that at all. People you better not have lost touch with: -Brian East -Scarlett Warner -Sara Aiken -Madison Estelle -Miss Mackenzie -Rachel (!) -Madison Allen -Jake Haubner (but lets be real, this is wishful thinking. I would be surprised if you still had contact with him, even though you miss him quite a bit right now *sigh*) -Megan Cox What I wish for you: I hope you have experienced amazing things that have forced you to morph into a genuine and amazing person. I hope honesty and meaningful relationships are still some of your core values. I hope you never break promises to yourself, or go against your gut and remember to NEVER UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES go against your "Everything happens for a reason" mentality. If you do, you'll get burned. I can undoubtedly promise you that. I hope you are liking Comm classes more than you liked business classes. Honestly, I don't see how you could hate something more. I hope you have become a better friend, learned how to handle stress better, and have more of a solid relationship with God. This past year has been a little rough in that department, but no worries! You are doing your best to get back to the flock right now. That's all I have for now! Stay golden Con canino, Jen