Happy Birthday Cousin!

Melissa! Oh my gosh, I miss you so much. I haven't talked to you in a few weeks, maybe a month... And watching all of these movies about love makes me feel all lonely... I'm multi-tastking while writing this... Me and Rachel are watching a movie... My mom was watching it, but she was being a creeper and we were fighting and what not and she left... Her fault this time, totally her fault. She refused to rewind the movie to the beginning and she started talking in this whiny voice that annoys me to death... So we were all here to watch the movie, and we wanted to know what was going on from the beginning (she had already seen the movie and knew what would happen) and she said something about me being opinionated and I really don't know what that means... So I was like "I'm not the one that's talking like such a baby". heh, I'm a jerkie and I don't care. :P Back to you! It's your birthday! I LOVE YOU so so much Melissa! You're are absolutely and undoubtedly the BEST cousin ever!!! And you've saved my LIFE so many times. You're the only person I have that loves me... or at least that will actually say and show it... And you have no idea how much I miss you. It's intense, I feel so let down... like I just get to live here being the only person shunned from everyone with no love... I think about you every single night and spontaneously throughout the day. EVERY day. Because I just love you oh so much and I miss you like crazy. You're so wonderful and so amazing and I don't even know what to say. I feel like I have to try so hard to be cared about, especially by you... But you just love me no matter what, and I miss you... If you read this, first off wish yourself a happy birthday from me. I hope I get you something really special to go along with this. And congratulate yourself, because you're like my little cousin hero... And I'm super glad for you so far. You make me happy, and I'm thinking that I like that. I can be the most crazy upset, out of control person anyone's ever seen...but after I've talked to you for like 2 minutes, I just want to be happy and hyper and optimistic... And I don't know why, you just know what to say and how to make me feel so extremely important... and at that moment it makes me think to myself that I don't need people here, when I feel like crap and there's no one to love me, I can talk to you and be happy and loved... I love you so much, and I need you... And right now...if you remember this... I wish I was there to give you tons of flowers and applejuice!!! And we could have spendovers...because you're just awesome and you're such a WONDERFUL cousin!! So, happy happy birthday!!! You're 22 years young today. Don't forget me please! You're all the love I've got, and I don't want to give up. Don't let me... I love you oh so much, you're absolutely wonderful and amazing and I MISS YOU my cousin!!! Love love love, and more love, Amy I tried to send this like months ago... but it didn't work... so here I go again... I LOVE YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELISSA!!!! :)