A letter to my older and hopefully wiser self.

Dear Andrew, Things hopefully got better for you. I hope you found something that truly grasps your adoration and attention. I pray you've not lost your love of the smallest things in life and if you have, remember to always find the joy and pleasure in the smallest things, I remember Past Me used to. You had some struggles with work, and I only hope they resolved themselves, if not, you know now and you'll know when you receive this that it was unfair criticism and your colleagues all had your back. You've been sh*t on far to much for a place that you poured your heart and soul into. Dedication in a job is something that most people don't have. By now Future Me, you're probably a fully fledged Canadian Citizen or atleast well on your way to becoming one. I hope you are. Follow your dreams. Don't make up wishes and not aim to fulfill them. Each endeavour you make will be worth it even if you don't succeed, lessons will be learned. Lessons that will help further mould you into the person you want to be. Jeez, I wonder what all the kids you've taught are like now. I imagine them to have grown up into smart children. You certainly taught them well, this much is true. It's visible in the reaction from parents, kids and the staff you used to work with. You had your heart set on her. You wanted her. The little apprentice you called her. She was something I, even as I'm writing this, pine for. One of the only people to touch us in this way. I can't even begin to imagine what she is doing with her life. How far she has travelled, the things she has seen and done, the people she has met and the relationships she has made. Maybe it'll happen before you go, maybe not, but if it doesn't just remember, the pleasure was entirely mine. She was beautiful in every sense of the word, in body mind and soul. Don't beat yourself up about her, if it was meant to be, if it IS meant to be, it will happen. Get in touch with her. Don't lose touch of who you are. Remember all the smallest traits that make you special. Remember to never let people sway your thoughts and dreams. Work hard, play harder, and dedicated yourself to everything. Wherever you go, go with all your heart. Peace and love, oh and have a good Christmas. Past Me.