Dear FutureMe,

Everything is stupid and I hate everything. I’ve been experiencing anxiety. I hate my current living situation, I hate my job, I hate that I’m so far away from being on a doctorate. It’s so annoying that my eyes are so dry and I’m so sensitive to light. Chanine just had krizma and it went nice. I hope she passes her grade and doesn’t fail Latin. I hope I find a good support worker role. The plan is to stay at the role for a year and volunteer at the same time. Then get an assistant psychologist role. Then apply for a doctorate preferably before I turn bloody 30. I’m 26 right now. I just pray that the times will be better once I move out of here. Oh, and I learn how to drive! And I buy a car. So many things to consider. I can’t wait to have a car. I’d totally go for a ride now. I also need to complete my volunteering training. I’m so exhausted from life, I didn’t even manage to get outside today and I haven’t even spent that much time on social media. Oh well, at least my CV is done now. God help me, I’m doing so many things all at once. I kinda like the motivation the summer brings me, kinda hate the stress. Yes, I am stressed out. I am not appreciated at work enough. My salary isn’t where I want it to be and Manchester is so expensive to live in. I miss my family and I am very lonely. Still unwed, still childless. Maybe it’s a good things. They say better things are coming. Are they better now? If they aren’t, what are we doing about it? I think they are better though. My knee hurts. I hope the pain is gone now because I can barely walk.

In several months, I’ll have a better living situation. I’ll have a car. I’ll know how to drive. I’ll have a role that will give me experience in mental health. I won’t live in Manchester anymore and I won’t feel homesick for Manchester either. I’ll have been in Croatia on vacation as well.