Dear future self,

2020 was a tough year, not doing well in college, still don't have much friends, feel like losing my direction, lost. Christmas is coming, It's been a year but I still haven't completely recovered, from losing my best friend. Feel like I won't find anyone that better than her. but I am happy that this year, my cousin and I had a good time playing together, cheer me up a bit. Also my friend, Y, thank you.

The reason I want to write this letter is that, I really worry about the future, u know, our home is being ****** by the ****** government, everyone is leaving, I am planning on that too. I am scared. cuz this mean I will have to leave my family and my friends, especial my grandma, I miss her so much. Honestly, I am still not very familiar with the subject I am studying right now, I don't have the confident to study master course oversea, cuz I don't think I could handle it well. I doubt that if I should keep study or not, to live there. I don't wanna leave, but I know that my home is not like it use to be, and it will become worst in the future, and I hate that.

Right now, I am preparing for the next semester, 3 major course is coming@@ Future me, I don't know where are u right now, TW or home, but I hope that everything is going well, keep it up, I will too, not just leaving all the hard work to u :D Anyway, this is the way. If u are in TW, I hope that u could find someone that can talk to, to share with.

I don't actually have a dream, not a specify one, but my dream, or wish right now is that, in my home place, everyone is safe. I hope I could do well and my family don't need to worry about me, then I can play my guitar. I don't know if I have the courage to talk to her again, but I hope that she is doing fine too. And my little brother, keep it up, work hard. Few days ago, I had a dream having a trip with u in Japan, I really want to have this trip with u in real life.

I guess this is it, I gonna eat my lunch now(it's 4 pm now :)), just do it future me, everything gonna be alright . btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY \(^0^)/