No matter what you're a BADASS

Dear confident and beautiful badass, Listen hot stuff I know you're a model, living in a big house, married, and your little monster should be 10 or 11 (starting middle school). Hey you can dream right? Well the model thing I know you don't want. Living in a big house well... we both know you planning and working it to buy by the time you're 30. Hunny you're just 26 there'll be plenty of time to accomplish that. Marriage well I know you don't believe that legally but you never know might meet a man that will make you reconsider it. And your little monster I hope within the year he has learned to like math because let me tell you he hates addition Oh! Don’t forget to use M&M as rewards. I'm writing this to you because you better have accomplished your goals. We know that what's most important right now is your health. You are healthy right now and you’re young just waaay overweight. Now I hope you practiced what you preached. You’ve had great results in every physical that you have done but that doesn’t make you have a go of an unhealthy lifestyle. Now I hope you have changed your lifestyle maybe lost friends and made new ones. Oh I really hope you made new ones because right now your social life sucks! Girl its lonely here. I hope you have become selfish and pleased yourself and not people please. I know you feel horrible about yourself but you still wear a smile because that’s what you do now. YOU ARE NOT HAPPY! That’s okay. But stop feeling shitty about yourself. Regardless if did not you lost weight I just want you to live to see your little man grow up and be there for him. You know how much he needs you. And you know what you need him. Remember you are all that each other has unless you meet someone that actually wants to be part of your family. Let me tell you what I’m thinking about who you are. You’re a BADASS! A mothereffing BADASS! You are an amazing mother and plenty have told you I just want you to believe it. You’re a great daughter not perfect but you’re great. And you’re an awesome friend always lending an ear. You always show kindness. Don’t worry right now let me tell you, you think that being fat is the reason why you’re single and also having a special needs child you feel like guys run away once you mention you are the only parent involved. Hunny those that run off because you aren’t up to their standards physically or because you can’t go out spontaneously. Those are boys and you know they don’t deserve what you have to offer because they don’t deserve it. I hope by now you know you’re worth. Now if you haven’t lost weight get on it you need you to match the outside with who you are inside because inside you’re wonderful. Now start believing it if you haven’t. Oh and I hope you did worry so much about your love life and not focus on yourself. Girl you are will be great and…. Make sure you have every man that will be after you to take a number and a seat. I love you and you need to be loved. Love The insecure emotional hot mess.