Bun in the Oven Yet

Dear FutureMe, It's been a year, eh? You probably don't remember this day in particular because it's not that special. Despite the happy circumstances of our life, you were a bit disappointed today. Queasy stomach, late period but the test still showed negative. No baby yet. Hopefully, you have that baby that we so desperately want. It seems like we've been trying for a long time and no bump to speak of, just pee soaked disappointment. No worries, though, everything else is still great. The house is perfect, the husband is perfect, our business is still growing despite the recession. I really hope when you read this you roll your eyes about how silly you were, wanting a baby so desperately. Now you must be sick of diapers, crying and the cost. But right now, we've waited so long for this. We've been together for 8 years, we've built up a healthy savings account and gotten a house way too big for just two people and dog. The empty bedrooms long for poopy diapers, trust me. So even right now, as you read this and miss the day before being a parent, don't think it was so great. There is a void that baby has filled that right now hurts and wants for so much.